IFish Fishing Forum banner
1 - 1 of 1 Posts

·
Administrator
Joined
·
120,054 Posts


Fishing The Coast, Oregon and Washington
http://www.qksrv.net/click-1442910-1529646

NOVEMBER
2004





Jennie's
Fishing Life


November 2nd, 2004

I simply cannot believe that it is November! It seems
just yesterday that I was taking rest breaks on the sun porch, sipping
iced tea and throwing Kilchis his Frisbee!
Kilchis has a Frisbee made out of Kevlar. Bullet proof! However,
it is not "lost" proof! They are floppy, and difficult
to throw when wet, but as long as I can keep locating them, they
are lasting forever! You can buy them at the local Tillamook Feed
store. Best thing I've found for Kilchis, yet!



Water Plant Natural landscape Fluvial landforms of streams Tree


The place where I fish... or cast. :)

<left>

I'm finding it difficult to find anyone who feels any sympathy for me,
lately. I start a conversation, "I'm getting so sick of fishing for
chinook in the back yard with no luck..." and people mock me, "Oh,
Jennie... that's REALLY too bad! I feel so sorry for you that you have a
river out back!"
It humbles me. I am lucky! I am so lucky! I just can't catch anything out
back! I can catch other places, but not at home! The good holes have changed
this year, and I haven't learned to fish them, yet, obviously!
This is not stopping me, though! I still try! It's wonderful therapy, and
good exercise for me to walk out to the river.
The wind is howling. A 35 mph gust startled me awake at 4:30 AM. It sounded
all to heck like one of those aluminum lawn chairs was being thrown across
the lawn. We don't have any of those, though. Wonder what it was? Oh no!
A thought just came to me. What about the trampoline? It's anchored to a
tree. It's too dark to see, but... but... I hesitate to look! We have lost
two trampolines to the wind. One flew in the river, and one just broke apart
into pieces. I guess I'll find out at first light. The boys seldom use the
trampoline, anymore. They've outgrown the bouncies... It's on to bigger,
and better things.
Today I have physical therapy at 8:30, and then I have to call a neurosurgeon
to make a first appointment, for my neck.
Tis a day to stay home, do a couple contests on the board, maybe... and
drink hot chocolate.
The wind is howling, the rain is falling hard. The river will rise, and
a fresh batch of chinook will be chasing upriver. Renewed hope for "'me
bobber and me!"

November 3rd, 2004

Well, it's taken me 44 years to grow to dislike politics,
and I have ifish to blame. I had always been mostly complacent. I wasn't
interested in learning about Government in school, but somehow, just like
I aced my piano lessons without practicing, (don't tell!) I managed a good
grade in those classes.
But, a lack of interest did not determine any kind of like or dislike for
politics for all of those years. They simply happened around me, and I didn't
take much notice.
It's funny, because I once had a terrible crush on a guy at Portland State.
He was majoring in political science, so... what did I do? I took a darn
class in poli/sci! My heart, of course, did not belong in the classroom.
I was romancing for common interest.
Running ifish has brought me many things. Many of them are wonderful things.
A bunch of friends, and the satisfaction of doing good things for our rivers
and streams.
Finally, I love something so much that I'm willing to reach out and touch
the politics behind it. So, ifish has brought me the need to get involved,
politically, to save our rivers, our streams, our spawning salmon.
We allow fish politics on ifish, but we do not allow partisan politics.
Now, that is a very thin line to walk! Trying to balance that monster while
moderating the boards is a very delicate procedure!
That alone brings a bit of contention to the boards, and many questions
of what is appropriate.
Six months ago or so, the moderators and admins at ifish decided we weren't
going to have ifish.net involved in the political scene for this year's
election. We had a "just say no" policy.
We came to that conclusion after seeing many people who otherwise had fishing
in common, divided in the most angry and unattractive ways. Name calling,
anger, opposition, nasty notes in the background... oh! The uglies were
coming to ifish!
We just said "no more."
What an education this was for me! I had no idea the passions people felt,
politically. I had no idea that democrats and republicans treated one another
with such disrespect and childish hatred.
I listened to right wing talk radio. I listened to Michael Moore. Both sides!
I was totally floored by the lack of reason for their hatred, and instead,
the outright name calling, and childish labels put on their political opposition!
"Just call 'em stupid." End of story! Huh?
Michael Moore, in my opinion, totally spun the right wing into a spin of
oblivious nonsense.
You know, I was on the debate team in high school. I saw all the tricks.
There are ways to win that just aren't fair. I know. I used them! It was
just a game, then, anyhow!
It all the heck reminded me of once when I was winning a debate on the river.
I was angry at fishermen for harassing salmon, holed up on the Kilchis when
the river was low. It was like fishing in an aquarium. There was no sport
there. Just total harassment, in my opinion.
One fellow questioned me as to my reasons, and I kept spitting out rapid
fire, reasonable answers, appropriate to his curiosity. He couldn't find
his footing, and finally yelled at me, "Well, well... (as his hair
stood on end in anger) YOU ARE UGLY!"
I nearly dropped to my feet laughing! That frustrated comment satisfied
me that I had made my point.
With that, I walked back to my car, knowing that he had a few things to
think about.
When I saw Bill, next, he couldn't believe I had taken on a group of snaggers,
alone, as a female.
I guess it was then, that I realized my love for salmon is strong enough
to get involved... (dare I call it) politically.
Now, when I hear that type of name calling on the radio, or on speeches,
or commercials, or God forbid, Ifish, I realize that the person calling
names has run out of reason. Anyone who needs to lower themselves to name
calling, obviously has given up all rebuttals to a debate, no matter what
side they are on.
The point of this writing, I suppose, is that sometimes I look at ifish,
and all that it has brought me. I really would have preferred to stay in
my "happy little place" where I didn't have enough passion to
become involved. It was an ignorant place, yes. But it was charming, and
happy, and innocent.
I have been saddened to become educated on the division that exists in people.
I am saddened that they love to tell jokes, at the opposition's expense.
That they consider lowering themselves to dividing our members, rather than
working hard to unite us in what brought us together.
I suppose the same process that exists on ifish, exists in the entire US
of A. It terribly saddens me that America is not one united force.
At the same time, I have to respect and admire the fact that people are
passionate enough to care so much. But, to care so much about something,
that you divide sides against one another seems to me to be self defeating,
in the end. There is a point at which your passion bites you in the backside.

I know it may seem impossible. I know it may seem ignorant, and innocent,
and childish... But patriotism and working towards a change for me is still
going to involve bringing people together.
As I watch the two divided sides this morning, in the final election, I
can only hope that somehow, somewhere, someone... whoever the winners may
be, that someone out there will be "romancing" for our common
interest. That's a huge task for the mighty US of A!
But, for me... my interests are mainly confined to "romancing the salmon."
I think that will keep me and ifish as a whole, out of a lot of trouble!

November 5th, 2004

I kick the rocks off of the felt on my boot soles. It's freezing
outside, and as I walk through the gravel driveway, I grow taller because
of the rocks that stick to my boots.
Glittering ice sparkles on the lawn in strips, where the trees let the light
peek through. It's almost the season where we get no sun all day long, here
in the canyon. Fresh elk tracks melt perfectly shaped and violent ruts into
the ground. It appears they've been dancing on the river bank in the moonlight.
I woke up this morning and took a deep rush of breath in the cold air, as
I let the dogs out. Two brightly shining stars twinkled back at me in the
pre dawn darkness. I stood still for a moment to capture the season.
The fresh coffee tasted wonderful as I sipped to wait for the light to come.
Right before it happens, I wander to the mud room and pull on my gear. I
trudge, every morning, down to the same old hole and cast.
I've quit fishing. I've taken up casting.
Nothing to do with "fish" happens, lately. I don't spot them.
I don't see them roll. And I don't certainly gain contact with one of them.
I do believe that the higher waters of late Summer and early Fall have really
changed the run this year. It's a year with good escapement for the fish.
That's great and that's grand, and I'm very happy for them. But, gee...
Can't one fish... just one lonely, late, lost soul take a nibble on my hook?
Bill is busy with the Rendezvous tournament. He calls in a cheery voice,
and reports that the ghost hole is really good this morning! "Just
put number two in the boat!" I swallow, try to sound cheery and congratulatory.
"That's great, Bill! Congrats!"
I hang up and try to convince myself there really are fish in the Kilchis.
It must be the way I'm fishing. Which rig should I try, next? Maybe if I
changed bobbers, or fished with a pink jig instead of purple? Perhaps get
out my planer, set down my chair, bring a cup of coffee and wait with a
pink lure out there? Or maybe it's time for my fly rod, and some chums?
I don't think so.
Yesterday Bill took a second run down the Kilchis with his clients for the
tournament. He spotted three chums. Count them! Three! It's November! There
should be a mass of chums! No way am I going to double haul a salmon fly
rod and put more stress on my shoulder for three chum in the river! My chances
would be too poor for that risk.
Two fish in the ghost hole, huh, Bill? It's only 8:30 AM!
I have to tame this evil salmon self pity in me! It's not pretty on me,
and I'm ashamed.
Bill is fishing. His activity results in fish. I am casting so my activity
results in a cast. I take great pride in my casts. They are long, graceful,
and land right in the right spot. I'm good at casting. I can stay out of
the trees, and keep doing it, even when my hands are frozen and stuck to
the cork.
Someday, with patience, I will quit casting, and start fishing again. But
that will be up to me to decide when... right?
I'll enjoy the glitter in the lawn, the fresh elk tracks, and the river,
which has dropped amazingly fast. I'll thank God for the trees that tower
high over my head and move, ever so slightly in the east wind. I'll appreciate
the warmth of sun after the ice melts, and watch in enjoyment, as the world
thaws around me.
I'm going to disconnect my phone, for the day.
After all, who needs fishing reports when you are just casting? It's distracting
to me, all that 'fishing for fish' talk. What nonsense.
I'm casting for pure enjoyment.
You believe me, right?

November 7th, 2004

Casting yesterday was fine, thank you, and yes, I did well!
I was very successful in my casting! Not one fish bothered my casting, or
my retrieving! Now, that is a good day casting!
The 20th annual Rendezvous awards dinner last night was fun! Wow! They came
in with a record amount of fish this year!
It was really funny. The night before they had made fun of Lee Darby, for
getting stuck in Tillamook Bay on a sand bar. Of course, the saying goes
that there are two kinds of guides on Tillamook Bay. Those that have been
stuck on a sand bar, and those that will be stuck on a sandbar.
Well, yesterday Tim Juarez was traveling at the entrance to the Wilson from
Memaloose and guess what? He came to the dinner party with an empty trailer!
His boat was still there! Ach!
But the guides at the Rendezvous don't give up easily. Lee Darby marched
his clients upriver to catch fish.
Tim Juarez borrowed another guide's boat, and off they went to limit out,
leaving their boat high and dry at the entrance to the Wilson! Way to go,
crew!
Bill came in with three fish for the day.
In the two day event, 76 participating anglers caught 172 salmon. 15 of
these anglers caught their limits both days. Eight of the guides got their
anglers limits both days.
Strangely enough, the largest fish registered was only 32 1/2 pounds!
The tournament raised over 50 thousand dollars for the Tillamook Steelhead
Broodstock programs! Whoo hooo!
Jim Erickson and Tim Juarez had their usual ten dollar bet, and Jim went
home, winning by four inches with a signed ten dollar bill from Tim.
Jim, in all of his pride, offered a trip down the North Fork for both Tim
and Shana as a show of his thoughtfulness.
Dinners both nights were wonderful and were prepared by a volunteer crew,
headed up by Herb Good.
The Tillamook Anglers volunteered their time to clean and vac pack all the
fish taken, on both days. That's a lot of fish to handle! Three cheers for
the Tillamook Anglers!
Both Tim and Shana were paramount in putting together this year's event
and they both pulled it off, seamlessly.
Today is Steve Koler's funeral service, and I'm not quite sure if I'll be
attending or not. Bill is going for certain.
We may head out soon to try our luck on T bay before he (or we) go to Portland.
I tend to think that Steve would have insisted we do that in his honor.
Font Art Electric blue Pattern Symmetry
For those of you who have called
about shuttles in the last few days, things have been nuts with the tourney.
We will now return to our regularly scheduled shuttle service.

November 9th, 2004

Oh brother! My kids asked last week if they could take a "personal
day" off of school. What for? To go get a video game, "Halo"
that would be released last night at midnight.
Of course, my immediate reaction was, "Not a chance! No way!"
Their plan was to go to Portland after drama practice at night, pick up
the game which was on reserve, at midnight. Then, they would go to their
friend's sisters home in Portland, spend the night, get up, and come home,
today.
Again, my answer was a firm, "No!"
Well, they went. Why? What changed my mind? One of their TEACHERS! You got
it! Their teacher at high school was driving them! She was encouraging this!
Now, that makes me laugh!
It was fun for them. They all wore self crafted "Halo" necklaces
and were having too much fun. How can you say "no" to too much
fun?
There are worse things!
If it were a student, a friend, a teenager driving, no way! But, somehow,
the fun of it all, the group of kids together, the responsible chaperone,
the saved money for this event, plus, the fact that it is the end of the
quarter, well, it all added up to a final gift of permission from Mother.
Thus, I didn't sleep well last night, and today is a fishing day for Jennie!
There is one other thing that will make fishing interesting, today:
Yesterday, I quit physical therapy on the recommendation of my doctor. He
thought I should wait until I see a neuro surgeon, before I tried too much
with my neck problem. He didn't want me to risk further injuring myself.

I have extreme weakness in my left arm.
So, by golly, I decided to fix that weakness!
Hey! I can't fish well, so it needs fixing!
I was out on the river casting. I stopped to move spots. I noticed I could
barely hold my rod in my left hand to carry it. I was frustrated. This just
wouldn't do. I stopped, picked up a large rock in one hand, and began vigorous
exercises with it, in total frustration. I wanted to FIX it! I was mad at
it for not working right!
My frustration was also partly due to my conversation with my neuro's secretary.
I called the neuro surgeon, and here's how the conversation went.
I had put the call in, (three times!) last week, to Dr. Fixit.
Dr. Fixit's nurse called, one week later.
I'd like to make an appointment, please.
"Alright. We are backed up. How bout Jan 3rd?"
WHAT?
"Yes, Jan 3rd. What kind of insurance do you have?"
Medicare and Oregon Health Plan.
"Oh, I'm so sorry... we don't take that, and no one else does either."
Font Gas Tints and shades Symmetry Electric blue

So..... I thought I'd fix it myself! Lift those rocks! Make it burn, Jen!
One! Two! Three! I lifted that rock!
Font Gas Tints and shades Symmetry Electric blue
I sit now with an ice pack!
I know there are currently many people reading ifish. Does anyone operate
on necks? Hey, you can filet fish like a surgeon! I've seen it! Come on...
It's just a little neck surgery! Line me up with those salmons and let's
get to work!
I don't know what to do. What on earth do people do when they are in a lot
of pain, and no one can fix it?
I KNOW!
Lift rocks and go fishing!
And although that sounds as silly as driving to Portland with your teacher
to skip school, I'm going to go fishing!. And... I don't need permission
from anyone!!

November 10th, 2004

I decided to take yesterday off of casting, and went into
fishing mode. Click
here, to see!
It's not big, but it was fun! I caught it on the Wilson
river, right after telling Bill that I should change baits, that my eggs
were looking ragged. So, don't be thinking that some fish don't like ragged
eggs. Some do!
Today, I'm off to take Andrew to his eye doctor. Home tomorrow, then off
to my eye doctor regarding surgery, on Friday. We'll see!
Regardless, it's going to be a busy driving week!
Off I go!

November 11th, 2004

Couples today have a wide choice of birthing options that
make the experience a personal, memorable, and as comfortable an experience,
as possible.
They can travel far, or stay near to home.
Yesterday, as I walked the river from high to low, I spotted something that
I hadn't expected. A birthing couple!
I stood, fly rod in hand. Two feet from where I stood were two chum salmon,
and one menacing relative that probably wasn't invited.
I know he wasn't invited, as the couple kept chasing him off. I know people
like that!
The chum have never spawned in this particular location before. I was surprised,
as it was so close to shore!
Pulled to the attraction, I plopped myself down in the rocks, to watch.
My fly rod was gently placed across my lap, and I tried not to move.
It was the most intriguing "Discovery Show" that I had ever been
a part of!
The hen was mostly still, finning in the shallow current. The buck raced
wildly around her, chasing off the other buck, and then joining the hen,
almost side by side.
With the rain falling on my bare head, I must have sat there for an hour.
Kilchis sat by my side, not knowing what I was doing.
Every so often I'd glance at the green and metallic fly on the end of my
rod and giggled. No! That would be terrible! Still, the naughty kid in me
giggled. I could no way dangle that fly in front of those spawning salmon!
I'm thinking that the very thought of doing so, however, must be pretty
normal for a fishing minded gal. Or, maybe I could just help the couple
rid themselves of their menacing relative, who looked bright, and not nearly
ready to take part in such a ritual anyhow? Nah... Best just to leave the
show for fishier waters....
After all, I hadn't been invited either, and my thoughts of feathers with
hooks was just as menacing as the uninvited buck.
This happens each year, yes. Not with such close encounters, but the presence
of chum salmon in the Kilchis river.
Remember, you can only target chum salmon until November 15th, and if I
were you, I'd stay clear of the shallow riffles where they spawn, unless
you are just there to watch.
I pulled myself up and lost all interest in fishing. Instead, I was excited
to know that I had something to look forward to, on my "health"
walks to the river.
Sometimes I begin to wonder... The Kilchis river offers me casting opportunities,
and now educational viewing opportunities. I wonder if "fishing"
is not much of an option.
As I get ready to shower, and leave for fishing Tillamook bay, I'm yet more
convinced. I catch most of my salmon elsewhere. On the bay, in the Wilson,
in the Trask, on the Columbia. I view my salmon stamp and see that this
is true.
The Kilchis river is a magical, wonderful place. But, not usually a place
to retrieve the salmon filets that grace my dinner table.
It's a place where I release hardy and spiritual cutthroat trout, practice
my casting for other rivers, and have close encounters of the "salmon"
kind.
It's a place where I clear my thoughts, gain much from it's beautiful, rejuvenating
and healing energy.
It's a place that Kilchis my dog, and Molly my cat and I have wonderful
times that build memories.
It's where I live. I wouldn't trade it for anything.
... and you know, I won't stop casting. Casting brings me hope. And once
the steelhead run starts, I really do get to fish!

November 13th, 2004

There were two things that came to mind the other day as I
tried to replay the feeling I felt as I stood alongside the Kilchis River.
What comes to mind is a split between the "Ho! Ho! Ho!" of Santa
Claus, as he takes off from a rooftop delivering toys, and the total joy
of our Heavenly Father on the Seventh Day, after he created the earth.
"And God saw everything which he had made and it was very good."
Those two things describe total joy, peace, and a seldom visited sort of
all over satisfaction in life. I feel happy enough, quite often. But that
"total joy" feeling washes over me only on rare, but memorable
occasions.
I felt pure joy! The kind of pure all over satisfaction in life that happens
all too rarely!
I had been on Tillamook bay in the morning, and it had been chilly. I had
gotten fishing out of my system. That was a good thing. I didn't need to
take a rod down to the Kilchis while I ran my dog, Kilchis. Molly the cat
scampered behind us.
I was wearing shoes that allowed me to walk more comfortably. No heavy hip
boots, no cumbersome felts. No heavy neoprenes. I was light. My body moved
freely. No rods tangled in the blackberry bushes. No difficult casts to
plot. Just me and the river.
I wore Bill's warm down jacket, and was pleasantly surprised to find hand
warmers, still warm from that morning, in his pockets.
The late Fall sun was shining down on me and gave the affect of warmth,
although it really wasn't warm out. I suppose it was the down jacket and
the hand warmers that made it feel like summer.
I stared deep into the low and clear Kilchis river. I was warm. My hands
were toasty! The down jacket was like a blanket around me! I couldn't detect
any aches or pains in my entire body!
I took a deep breath of pure, clear country air.
I was feeling good, contented... but the "pure joy" thing didn't
happen until I spotted a school of chum salmon, dancing in the swirling
current.
With the last slap of a tail, they vanished into the depth of the current,
and that's when it happened. That's when the whole feeling of total peace
and joy washed over me! Oh! If only I could feel that way more often! What
a rush!
Since then, every day I try to recapture that feeling. I still enjoy being
down there, but can't seem to duplicate that whole body experience!
Maybe it's the sunshine that's missing. Maybe I have too much on my mind.
I just don't know. I just can't seem to gather all of the elements that
achieved the pinnacle of happiness I felt that day on the river.
You know what? I think it was meant to be that way. If we could reach that
ultimate goal all of the time, it just wouldn't be a big deal, now would
it?
There is a chum salmon hen that lives in one spot in the river, a foot from
shore. Every day I can go down to the river and expect her to be there.
I have to creep up to the river's edge, until I see her. If I stand very
still, she won't move from there, and just fins, swishing her tail in that
one spot. I can stand and watch her in silence for quite some time before
she realizes that she has company. Then, she swishes her tail faster, and
moves swiftly across the gravel into a deep hole to sulk.
I think she has spawned already, and is waiting to die. The white patches
on her back show that her life is nearing the end.
Upstream, I found a huge dead salmon floating in the shallows. I nudged
it towards the current to take it downstream so Kilchis wouldn't roll in
it. As the season progresses, I know this to be a waste of time. There will
be so many, so soon!
I never cease to be amazed by the powerful force that drives these salmon
to their ultimate goal. To fight their way up the river to spawn, and then
to die.
I can't help but believe that after a salmon fights so hard to fulfill their
goal, that after their deed is done, they must feel that ultimate satisfaction,
joy and happiness that I felt, that day on the river.
"And the salmon saw everything which he had made and it was very good."
And then comes rest.
Perhaps very much like the hen that rests a foot from shore, on the Kilchis
river.
It was refreshing to me. In this season that so often marks a slaughter
of blood, that has the capability to grow a bitter competition between so
many anglers.
To be able to see beyond that, to the salmon who have made it through miles
of dangerous ocean, nets and predators, dodged those hooks, fought through
high water conditions or low, and have made it to the journey's end.
Now that's reason for pure joy.
I feel really lucky, I suppose, to have felt that special feeling without
having performed nearly such a miraculous thing as that.

November 14th, 2004

I don't know what I like better about fishing with Chris
Sessions
. Spending the day laughing, or spending the day catching fish!
I think both!
Chris is a master for hooking those sneaky chrome chinook, and if I know
the night before that I'm going to be fishing with him, I can't sleep!
He spent the night here the other night, and I knew that I was fishing with
him in the morning.
Therefore, I couldn't sleep a wink. So, at 4 in the morning, I got up and
thought I had snuck quietly enough through the living room where he slept.
He had left part of the TV on, so that the TV glowed in the dark. I quietly
picked up the remote and turned it off.
"HEY! I was watching that!!!"
I nearly crashed into the coffee table, laughing. I don't think I stopped
laughing until I thanked him at the ramp after fishing. Even then I giggled
to myself, all the way home.
I spent the day learning about new hooks, new techniques, new ways of doing
things, and most importantly, playing lots of fish! I have got to wonder
whether Chris has some kind of "secret sense" about where fish
are.
Had I been in the boat alone, I would have passed over water that he proved
to hold fish.
He'd stop at a place, and I'd look at him, half puzzled. "What are
we doing here?" I'd ask, as he dropped anchor.
It wasn't two minutes before he was wrestling with a fish on his line! I
couldn't believe it!
It's vital with guiding these days to have a close network of professionals
who are into fish. Chris has that. He's in tune and in the loop to know
where, when, and how.
Chris spends his summers traveling and guiding in Alaska, and pretty much
follows the fish, year round. He's one of those guys that was born with
"fish on the brain!" He's a dreamer, and nothing will stop him
from chasing the fish of his dreams. He's turned those dreams into reality,
every time I have fished with him.
It seems like if there are salmon in one of the fifty states in the USA,
he owns a license to guide it.
Call him on the phone sometime, and see! It's 1-503-706-6970.
Sometimes I just call him up for the heck of it when I'm feeling blue or
fishless. I'm certain to get a dose of fishing adventure at the other end
of the line. Sometimes, even the experience of him landing a fish, via cell
phone! That always makes me hang up with a giggle.
I feel extremely lucky to fish with Chris, as his schedule gets busier and
busier. It doesn't happen as often as it used to, so each time is a treasure.
Thanks, Chris, and until next time, "Fish on!"
You can book a trip with Chris by going to his web site, here.
He's fishing in Washington and Oregon in the next few months. You won't
regret it!

November 15th, 2004

Yawn. Fell asleep last night reading Linda Greenlaw's book,
"Lobster Chronicles" and woke this morning to the sound of 35
mph gales... zzzz.
I just put up Stan's new column. You can find
it here


I didn't feel too well yesterday, and Kilchis was very agitated
with me staying in the house all day. So, I headed outside, blanket wrapped
around me, to take pictures of the chums spawning. I got really close laying
on the rocks a foot from where they spawn. I was down and motionless, and
they started to get within range. Everything was going well. My shutter
perfect, my flash off-- and all of the sudden, Molly the river cat jumped
on my shoulders. Bye bye chum! Argh!

November 16th, 2004

I want to talk this morning about faith.
It's miraculous, and it never ceases to amaze me. I'm a critic sometimes.
A cynic, too.
Even though God has come through for me time after time (after time!), I
doubt.
I forget.
I fail.
Hey, I'm human!
I'm in a bit of a mess. I can't seem to figure out how to keep my medical
insurance, and try to keep ifish at the same time. Medical insurance for
me is way expensive. It's high risk, as if I were going to die tomorrow,
they think. Watch me fool them! But, the situation remains that I am difficult
to insure.
That's been on my mind a lot lately. My worst nightmare in the world is
growing old and alone, totally losing my eyesight and ending up having to
live in some kind of public housing in Portland, so I'm close to medical
help. It's a real possibility, but I try not to think about it.
Anyhow, as the drama of my medical insurance unfolds, I have found myself
having moments of less than faithfulness.
In addition, the kids have expenses this high school year that are out of
this world. I struggle to meet my bills. My car payment is late. Argh! Life!
You know?
However, I have been feeling a bit more calm and peaceful about everything
the last couple of weeks.
I've told you about my post office angel. She's just a darn nice lady, who
reminds me often of our Heavenly Father's grace and love. She always has
a smile on her face. Her laughter is a common melody, singing far outside
the Post Office doors, turning smiles upside down through the abandoned
winter streets of Bay City.
Today, after I retrieved my mail, she asked, fully knowing of my struggles,
how I was holding up.
"A bit better, lately." I stated. "I still have no idea what
I would do should I lose my insurance, but you know what? God does, so I
will rest in that. He has never failed me."
With that, I smiled, and left.
I sat in the car with Kilchis, and opened the first envelope. It was very
heavy, and I was curious as to it's contents.
I opened the card, decorated with colorful salmon, and several twenty dollar
bills spilled out in my lap!
I settled back, shaking, to read the note.
The letter praised me for holding my head up high, despite troubles I have
faced. (Oh! If she only knew! That makes me laugh!)
The letter praised me for my writing, and sharing my experiences with people.
It spoke of how my writings had touched her.
Shaking, I took the letter, and ran back to the Post Office Angel's desk.

"Talk about faith! Talk about answer to prayer!"
I was trembling, feeling a bolt of the most powerful presence of spirit
that I had felt in a long time! With tears in my eyes, I shared with her
the letter, and the monetary gift.
It wasn't all for ifish or for me, and that made it all the more meaningful.

The gift is to be split into three parts. One part to Steve
Koler's memorial fund
. One part to the Kid's
Christmas Fund
, and one for the boys and I for pizza! (Wait till they
hear!)
On the drive home I thanked God for his faithfulness to me, and to others,
and humbly apologized for my lack of faith, in the recent past.
I have learned today that God is always with me.
I have also been reminded to quit worrying so much about myself, and to
look at the bigger picture. Indeed, God has a plan for me, and I should
not worry! As long as I am in a position to help others, I will surely be
alright!
There are so many, many people so worse off then myself! This wonderful
woman took the time to write me and has blessed me so much with her kind
words of praise and gift of pizza for the kids! This has taught me the power
and strength of written words, and how much of a difference we can make
in other people's lives.
She has more importantly blessed the kids that are forced to be in the hospital
at Christmas time, and also blessed the wife of a wonderful man, Steve Koler.
So many people will miss Steve, for the rest of their lives.
When I think of these people and their situations, I am truly humbled.
Hey... I just wanted to thank Sea Sparrow. Not only for her generosity of
spirit, but for the lessons she has brought to my life, today.

November 19th, 2004

No one on the river! A fresh rain had fallen the night before.
There were storm warnings out that had kept people at bay, (Well, not really
on the bay, but home!)
The weather was delightful as we unloaded the drift boat for what was sure
to be a successful day of salmon fishing. Bill and I were dressed warmly.
Almost uncomfortably warmly, both for rain, and cold. We walked to the boat,
arms outstretched due to bulk, feeling like snow men.
I was excited, knowing that all conditions were perfect. It's late in November
for salmon, but this year's run seems to be late, so we were both confident.
We floated down to our first favorite slot on the Nehalem and fished. We
fished this way, and that, and that way and this, with no results.
Odd. Everything looked wonderful!
Gave up on hole one. Moved to hole two, which was really our very favorite.
Just as we pulled in, a truck came racing down the hill, parked, ran out
to "our" spot, and furiously began casting.
Gave up on hole two.
Head Art Font Pattern Symmetry

Oh well, hole three is really our most productive.
Ran on down to hole three. Lined up perfectly with the rock that we had
lined up with last time, and began to fish.
Bill backbounced eggs. I floated a bobber. Bill floated a bobber, and I
backbounced. My arm was getting tired. I know! A wrapped Kwik! I slid it
into the rod holder, and it furiously worked in the most perfect current,
as I rested.
"Come on! Bend, rod, bend!"
The fishless silence in the boat was thick.
A black cloud floated over us in the sky. The water became dark, twisted
and angry and before long, we were pelted with heavy hail and blown off
anchor by an abrupt wind.
'That's OK. Let's move under that tree. I've seen people catch fish there,
before!"
We moved. We fished. We failed.
"Let's fish that riffle we usually pass up." Bill said. We were
nearing the end of the drift.
Before long we were nearly in tide water, and we tried a deep, slow hole
with a bobber, 15 feet down.
"Nope!"
You know, there are days that I get frustrated fishing, but for some reason,
this wasn't one of them. Even though the fish weren't snapping, I was so
thankful for the peace and quiet.
Relief from pain comes in many forms. Many pain medications work by blocking
receptors in the brain. These drugs alter the mind's perception of painful
stimuli. It makes sense to me that fishing, or doing anything you really
enjoy has a powerful affect on pain.
Bill is often confused and amazed that when I am feeling really sick, I
sometimes still go fishing with him. I do! Mostly because he takes care
of all the hard stuff, and I'm just left to take my fishing medicine, and
get better!
When finally at home, Kilchis and I went out to the Kilchis river and watched
the chum salmon. It's so fun to have a salmon aquarium in your back yard!
With the water low and clear, they can't really hide. I watch them flash
on their sides to dig the redds. I counted over 30 chums, working the stretch
of river. A couple chum salmon floated down the river, nearly spent from
their activity of keeping their species alive. They finned, ever so weakly,
trying to keep up with the current. It was a losing battle, and they were
washed over the riffles, and down, down, down to sea.
With that, I began to feel about the same. The pain numbing effect of fishing
was wearing off. I needed ice for my neck, and rest.
I finally found a neck doctor that will work on my spinal problem! I need
to wait until December 3rd, but I think I can do that! I just need to keep
fishing, to keep the pain under control. That's not a bad prescription,
is it?
Also, I found an eye doctor that I really, really like. His name is Dr.
Mathers at the Casey Eye Clinic. We had a great talk last visit.
We talked about how doctors, (and especially famous and successful ones)
play "hero" on a daily basis. That's how they feel good about
their day to day work. I am usually difficult, so they put me with those
"famous" doctors.
For instance:
Patient one walks in at 8:00 AM, and the doctor fixes him. So far, the day
is going well! Patient two walks in and he fixes her, too. "It's a
perfect day in the office!"
Then, patient three, (me!) walks in with difficult problems
that are difficult to fix. The Doctor cannot fix me, and instead may have
made it worse. The doctor's day is not going so well, now.
He said that can tend to make both the patient and the doctor have a bad
day. He explained that that is why I may have less than pleasing experiences
with doctors.
He told me he was going to approach me with both of us knowing that my eyes
are difficult. He said that if
he feels he can fix my eye problem, after thinking about it long and hard,
we will precede. However, we both need to understand and realize that the
chances are there, that it won't work.
So, I may be having eye surgery, soon. I can't wait to hear, and it's refreshing
to know that he won't dislike me, or throw up his hands and give up on me
if it doesn't work. So many doctors have done that to me in the past. I
think he's going to stick it out!
You know, if it doesn't work, and he ends up being upset after all, I'm
going to take him fishing.
I'm beginning to think that fishing is a cure all for almost any ailment.
From pain to disappointment, it works for me!

November 22nd, 2004

Sometimes it's fun just to hop in someone else's boat that
is coming to fish the bay.
Yesterday, I did just that, with Pete Morris. No hooking up the boat, no
launching, it's pure luxury! Just hop in and go!
As I sat in Pete's boat, with nothing to be responsible for except for my
own rod and reel, I leaned over and stared into the salty water of Tillamook
Bay. It became the salty water off of Newfoundland, and then Isle Au Haut,
slapping at the chine.
You know, I hesitate to read books, sometimes. I have a tendency to get
totally lost in them. I just kind of "check out" for the duration,
and then some.
I have just finished all three of Linda Greenlaw's books.
Linda is perhaps the only female swordfish boat captain in the world. She
held a part in the famous story, "The Perfect Storm."
Linda has skippered boats from Newfoundland to Brazil and has enjoyed a
number of fisheries including harpooning and longlining for sword, dragging
for squid, tub-trawling for halibut, and trapping lobster and crab.
Her first book was "The Hungry Ocean", which I devoured with a
hearty appetite.
Presently, Linda works her own boat inshore, lobstering the water surrounding
her home on Isle Au Haut, a small island off the coast of Maine.
Thus the book, "The Lobster Chronicles."
In between, there was "All Fishermen are liars."
I raced through all of these books at warp speed. I became part of each
one. Although I didn't read them in the order they were written, I was able
to place myself in the appropriate time.
I finished "The Lobster Chronicles" last, and I have got to tell
you, each morning that I wake, I think I'm in Isle Au Haut. When I realize
that I am not, a kind of depression sinks over me.
Don't get me wrong. I love it here on the Kilchis River. But, I really escaped
into these books. I couldn't wait, each night after dinner to make my way
upstairs and open the covers of these books.
In, "The Hungry Ocean" I was at sea for many, many days, and I
came to love the characters in the book.
In, "All Fishermen are Liars" I knew the smells of the bar that
the interview took place in, all too well. It was warm there, and comfortable.
The stories told became my stories.
I don't consider myself an avid reader. After these books, perhaps I'll
need to reconsider that opinion. Come to think of it, the same thing happened
to me, reading Francis Caldwell's books.
I felt like an addict, and when I closed the last page of the last book,
I felt totally lost. I had spent a week or more in different places and
time, and it took many hours to readjust to life on the Kilchis river. I
walked around in a daze. Dinner was late, the kids had to call on me more
than once, as I didn't recognize the term, "Mom." MOM? I'm a swordfishing
captain, and I have no children!
Head Art Font Pattern Symmetry

I sent in an e mail to Linda Greenlaw, that I doubt she will ever receive.
It read:
"Dear Linda,
I just finished your last book, and now I have no life. Please write another.
Thank you,
Jennie Logsdon Martin"
Back to life on the Kilchis river... I have an aquarium filled with spawning
chum salmon out back. I sit on a grassy knoll, and try not to move my arms,
so as not to spook them. I watch, as they come and go. They flip on their
sides and flash silver at me as they dig their redds.
It's fascinating, and I can sit there for quite some time, before realizing
that dinner needs to be cooked, or the kids taken to town. Often, I faintly
hear the old dinner bell on the back porch, calling me to my duties as head
housekeeper, Mother, and cook.
It shakes me awake, as I begrudgingly get up to leave them.
It seems in all, that I am enjoying an escape from life, lately. Whether
it be from running from the publicity of a news article, or from the day
to day grind of being Mother on ifish, or Mother at home.
Give me a book, a dream, a chum salmon to focus on... I'm just "out
of the office..." "Gone fishin'..."
But, I'll be back soon.
That is, until Linda Greenlaw writes me another book.
Font Art Electric blue Pattern Symmetry


November 24th, 2004 6:00 AM

Ifish is getting too big for our britches! This morning, we
are trying something new. Switching to InnoDB so that the searches on ifish
don't put so much pressure on ifish. I think it will only be a couple of
minutes, but I just don't know, for sure.
Expect delays and errors throughout the morning, while we attempt to fine
tune it.

Yesterday I hopped in the boat with Bill and headed out to the bay for a
bit. I've got a big jinx going. I can't hook a salmon for my life! I think
it is a protective thing so that my shoulder will get better, faster. It's
got to be something like that! :) I'll not give in, nor give up.
I tried reverse psychology on them, yesterday. I shouted down into the water,
"Stay away from my bait, you pesky salmons!" I thought sure that
would do it! Salmon have a mind of their own and surely couldn't pass up
being naughty.
Nope. The boat next to me got one. Salmon mind what you
say! Proof positive! They stayed away from mine, and took his! Sheesh! I
can't win!
So, then I yelled over to another boat that was catching, "What color
of lipstick are you wearing?"
He told me yellow. Alright... Fine! What girl in their right mind would
wear yellow lipstick? I searched through my purse, but I just knew I didn't
have yellow! Oh no! If only I had yellow lipstick, I, too could be catching
salmon!
With yellow-less lips, and the command to stay away from my bait already
ordered, I just knew I was sunk for the day!
In all seriousness, the bite wasn't bad at the Ghost Hole yesterday. Rumor
has it the day before, even better. You know, one of those, "Should
have been here yesterday!" That always happens to me!
Today, it's off to Fred Meyers for some yellow lipstick. I will not command
my salmon to stay away from my bait.
I'm getting this down... this salmon fishing thing.
I'm going to get one!

November 25th
Happy Thanksgiving to all!


So much to be thankful for! Count the ways!
--For the chum in the river, for the tall trees that tower over me, for
the crisp cool autumn air, for the kids that are home, safe and sound...
for the family that I'm about to join hands with before we eat...
I'm thankful!
..and thank YOU, for making ifish a tremendous success that never ceases
to amaze me. Ifish is truly a gift that happened by surprise.
Head Art Font Pattern Symmetry

I can't tell you the friends I've made, how it has enriched my fishing life,
and touched my heart!
Thank you!
I find this most appropriate:

i thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginably You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
-e. e. cummings

Now.. Onto a little prayer, if you would. This was posted by a friend on
our marfan support group:

Raw
Faith


Oh! And there is a great boat for sale,
here!
It's CHEAP!

November 27th

Thanksgiving is always so nice. I rose in the morning, and
very relaxed, put together the pre dinner snacks that I was responsible
for. I lounged in my pajamas, built a fire, and even had time to make sure
the presentation on the food was gorgeous! Little grape tomatoes in bunches,
and dill, scattered around a filet of smoked salmon. Succulent shrimp tails
on a shiny sterling silver tray. I'm ready!
Christmas is a lot of work. Plain and simple, it isn't what it is supposed
to be.
I love Christmas! I do! I even feel that "spirit" already! I nearly
stopped at Fred Meyers this morning to pick up one of those fake garlands
of greens to decorate my bird feeder stand. I always wind it in that, and
then tie tiny red bows around up and down it. It's so cute, and the birds
love the hiding places.
But then-- I thought of the post Thanksgiving holiday shoppers. The lot
was as full as the Wilson river on Christmas week! There was no way!
From now on, I will plan my Fred Meyer shopping for earlier than eight in
the morning.
Oh, the work, the worry, the hurry the scurry!
The spending, (or the lack of spending!), the presents to wrap, and people
not to forget, the lines, the people, the parking!
Since when did the Bible state, "Jesus Christ is Born! PANIC EVERYONE!
??? It doesn't, does it? How absolutely weird, to have Christmas turn into
something I half dread!
After I prepared my food for the feast, we drove to Lake Oswego, where all
of my extended family gathered. It was so nice to see my Dad! He looks great!
We laughed! We hugged! I love catching up my nieces and nephews, and at
the same time can't believe how big they are! How old!
But, it was relaxing and really, really nice! My Dad, of course, made me
play the piano, which was terribly embarrassing. I just wasn't very good!
Remind me please, to at least try to keep up my chops?
Head Art Font Pattern Symmetry

I haven't played in months!
I got to hear my niece play and man, is she good! It's really nice to know
that someone is holding the torch, there, and will carry on the family's
musical heritage.
The only bad thing about Thanksgiving away, is that we have no leftovers.
So, yesterday I prepared a turkey with all of the trimmings, and of course,
pumpkin pie.
All week, the boat snacks will include turkey and cranberry sandwiches.
Oh! How they go with winter steelhead fishing!
The Kilchis yesterday was absolutely perfect. The barometer was rising,
the river was falling, and held a deep green opaque color. Perfect level,
perfect fishing. Well, that's what me and several thousand others thought!
I couldn't believe the amount of boats going down the river. Aluminum hatch!
Bill backed the trailer down the gravel bank, and we launched out back.
Luckily, we were able to get our spot. Bill lost one right off, but curiously,
that was the only fish we hooked into!
Boats passing by had either shrugs or negative head shakes to offer. I don't
know this, but I would assume it just wasn't all that hot, yesterday. I
don't know why. It sure looked fishy!
I feel an apprehension as the river rapidly falls, and as Christmas approaches.
What's more important? Shopping for Christmas, or catching a fish?
Argh. I will never get my shopping done! Here, fishy, fishy!

November 29th

So, it's early! But, with frost on the ground all day long,
I couldn't resist taking out my boxed Christmas things, and decking the
halls with but a few red ribbons of festivity.
As I look out onto the frosty meadow, I think I'll play some of my favorite
Christmas music.
Yesterday, I had the kids neatly pack away our Thanksgiving decor. All of
the fall leaves that were in baskets, all of the pilgrim candles and indian
corn are are boxed away until the next return of fall chinook.
With just a few bells and ribbons, and one garland of greens, I'm satisfied.
Bring on the season! (Slowly, though, alright?)
Funny, how I get this stuff out, and it's so fun and new! By the New Year
I can't wait to rid the house of any sign of it!
The river sets the seasons for me.
I have lived here on the river for four full years of seasons now, and have
so intimately participated in the activity.
I feel more in tune to the goings on of the river, than of the leaves on
the trees, or the life in my garden, or the temperature of the air around
me. Of course, it's all cumulative, but the river has become most a part
of me.
The cutthroat come. The cutthroat go.
The steelhead dance in, celebrating Christmas, and just as I find pine needles
in the carpet, long after Christmas, I find a stray native in the river,
long after the hatchery run.
The salmon... Oh the salmon! The salmon have set Fall as my very favorite
season. They are so easily visible in all that they do, from a huge splash
in the current when they are chrome bright and feisty, to the death roll
they attempt, as their lives end, in the stillness of the back eddies.
Their death and spawning mark the end of the Thanksgiving Holiday for me.

I sit and watch for hours, as they dig their redds, flashing their chrome
bright sides like a flash from a camera. The fanciful colors of chum salmon
are in direct harmony with the brightly colored leaves of early Fall.
The river levels rise and the salmon disappear, only to reappear as the
river again lows.
These same salmon seem to age with an amazing speed. Just as the trees leaves
sog and turn to earth, the salmon follow suit. Their flesh turns white with
the rise of water; their energy sapped by the increase in current.
Some are dead, laying in the shallows, some are barely finning, slowly over
their nest.
Early December seems to always bring low water levels. Frost sticks on the
ground, and long days without a shadow, grace the canyon.
A sparse new salmon enters the stream, just as the last leaves of the trees
fall in a biting December wind.
The river bank and the slow current less shallows are littered with salmon
carcasses, and I have to scold Kilchis to keep him away.
Soon... soon it will be Christmas.
A high water will come, sometime mid December, and with it, wash away any
signs of salmon. Out to sea, they flush!
But on the return flow comes the river's own Holiday festivities!
I want Bill to row me to the other side, so that I can hang one silver ornament
on the tall tree that shadows the deepest hole. A welcome ornament, for
our holiday guests.
Steelhead, dancing and jumping in total celebration!!
The world prepares for the celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ in such
timely fashion!
There is something about steelhead entering the river, that is so much more
joyful than salmon. Salmon come to die. Steelhead come to return! It's like
they are born again!
People of all over rise to the occasion and toss brightly Holiday colored
corkies and spinners, and plugs!
I'll not forget my many icy cold fingered days, drifting the river right
before Christmas. At times, I have dressed for the occasion. Once, even
wearing reindeer horns! What fun!
The Christmas season packs the river ramp lots with Holiday crowds. If you
don't catch a fish on the river, you'll be sure to catch a smile! So many
people gathered, doing their favorite things!
And this, my friends is what we have to look forward to! I for one, am ready!
(P.S... You should see my view!! It looks like snow! Frost tipped towering
trees! An icy meadow that looks like a skating rink! The last of the colors
of fall on the maple trees, in stark contrast! It's beautiful!)

FISHING THE COAST
A journal of my life on the Kilchis river.

</left>​

HOME
| EMAIL




 

Attachments

1 - 1 of 1 Posts
This is an older thread, you may not receive a response, and could be reviving an old thread. Please consider creating a new thread.
Top