I'll never forget when I first met Nicky. I was so amazed! What a wonderful, most beautiful animal!
Steve, you were so lucky to have Nick!
And now, my thoughts are with you.. and my prayers... and my tears when I heard. Oh, Steve... all my hugs for this pain... and the sadness to still come for what you have to endure in return for those wonderful years. Oh, the memories that will haunt you for days to come.
I know. I know all too well.
It was not too long ago... seems like yesterday that we went through this with Dee Dee and the sadness is still all too fresh. Hearing about Nick brought it all back as I sat on the couch and cried in my dinner for you, for Nick, for Bill, for me, for everyone that is gifted with the ultimate love that we share with our animals and then has to give it up.
Man, there is nothing like it. I love my Kilchis more than I've ever loved any man. Any man or woman or any child.
I'm not ashamed to say that I love my pets and I'm sadder when I part from them than I ever have been a person of any relation. I know that dogs become a part of us.
They always love us, no matter what. There is never any misunderstanding in relationships with the dogs who own us.
Dogs sit by our side and love us with intense devotion. They defend us and smile at us when we are down and make us smile back, through our tears. They cuddle us and lick our faces, even when we are frustrated with them. They forgive immediately and do anything to please us.
How could I feel guilty for loving them more than I do my people? No person on earth could be that good, no matter how hard they tried.
And so, after I hung up the phone when I heard, I sat and cried in my dinner.
I tried to call you, Steve, but you didn't answer the phone.
I'm going to try to be more like my dog from now on... to all of the people that I love. Just thinking about it... Oh my(!) but how I fall short!
Forgive me those uncanine moments, OK?
I love ya, Steve... and I'm so sorry. There is no way that I can help you to get over it, but I'm here if you want to talk.
I know that Nicky thanks you for the bravery you showed to put him out of his misery. Knowing Nick the little that I did, I'd say that his pride would be wounded having to have you take care of him the way you described.
You did the right thing, Steve... for Nick. For Sunnyview's Lord Nicolai Of Avalon... you returned all of the love that he invested in you, up till, and especially at the end.
Oh man... here are those tears, again.
Jen