Fishing The Coast, Oregon and Washington

March 2014
So fair, yet so cold like a morning of pale Spring still clinging to Winter's chill.
from The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)

March 3, 2014

Rain, rain, rain. At least it's not freezing rain! I just received a pop up alert on my ipad that the gorge, and as far in as East Portland is getting a dose. Yuck! Snow is fine. Freezing rain? Well... it's pretty, sometimes, but it sure is a mess!
I wonder what the rivers are doing? That reminds me, I haven't heard from Bill in a couple days. That always worries me. I'll call him after this.
I'm ready to go back to the river, if it weren't banking and a couple other errands, and the bank isn't open till tomorrow.
I have a cancer doc appointment, today. It kind of worries me. I have to get that feeling out of me. I need to feel positive about this!
Alrighty, back to the rivers, to see how they are fishing... IF they are fishing. I kind of doubt it!

March 5, 2014

I want to talk about moderating. May I have a piece of your time?
Let's do it!
The community of is bigger and busier all the time! I keep thinking it will settle out, and membership will level off, but no! It grows and it grows and it GROWS and it grows! Where it stops, no one knows!
But the tragic part of it is that could very easily drop off in an instant and the site that you and I adore could become totally irrelevant. That's the nature of the interwebs. It happens to so many sites! One day a busy, thriving community, the next, a deserted, empty and dated discussion board. Nightmare! I don't ever want to see that happen!
That is why it is vital to the community that as a reader and member we all use the alert button to let the mods and admins know about things that drive people away.
A little lesson, for those that don't know:
The following is the alert button:
That's the button that gives you the power to privately report problems to the mods and admins, thus, making a better board for all of us.
This is the way you can mold ifish to be what you'd like it to be.
You will find the alert button below and to the left of every post on the discussion board.
If you see an AUP (Acceptable Use Policy) infraction, please use the alert button to tell the mods and admins about it! Please! Alert things like name calling, politics, the wrong forum, any housekeeping item that will make ifish a better, more organized and family friendly place to be!
If two people are arguing, if folks are name calling, hijacking the thread to another topic- or if people are trolling, tick on that alert button below the post that is the problem. A pop up text area will come up. Type in the reason you see for the alert, and finally, tick "send report".
Alert button-Easy button!
This way, the mods and the admins can fix it, so that ifish is a better board for all of us!
As mods and admins, we used to write a personal thank you to everyone who wrote in to (alert) us of an AUP (Acceptable Use Policy) infraction. We did that not only to sincerely thank you for your help, but to encourage you to keep it up!
We are so busy lately, though!
We are thinking of disposing of the thank you's for a bit, while we concentrate on more and more (alert)s. I hate like heck to do that, but we are finding that it is taking way too long to get through our work so that we, too, can enjoy the board. Please know that although we may not initially thank you, we know who you are and we appreciate you so much!
As an aside, if you are ever interested in helping us out as moderators, please use the contact us button, and let us know! (I will be writing about what it takes to become a good moderator in a future column.)
In my humble opinion, it takes a pro active community to run a great board. That means that you need to be involved. Not only in posting, but by reporting posts that don't fit in, or break our rules. You can also (please!) alert spelling errors on topic titles. We can't change all spelling errors, but topic titles are important, in my humble opinion!
We need you, the reader, to alert problems that you see that we will probably miss. The mods and admins, who have the power to make these changes to the website, don't even get to read the boards much, any more! We are spending our "ifish time" responding to, and fixing AUP infraction alerts. So, we don't see these problems, unless you alert them to us.
I think it's funny sometimes when a reader will have gotten a warning about something or another and he sees someone else doing it. We'll get an alert saying, "He does it! How come you let him do it, and not me?!" Or, the nastier version... something like this, "Oh! I get it! You are totally unfair and inconsistent!" Argh...
I'll tell you why we didn't do anything about "his" infraction. We didn't see it! We didn't know it was there at all!
Most likely, a member of ifish alerted your AUP infraction, and we took care of it. They didn't see the other one, either!
Again... we don't get to read the board to find all problems. You do! So you get to alert us!! So, if you see someone else doing what you were warned about, please let us know! We aren't picking on you. We are trying to do our job. Don't accuse us of being unfair! We probably won't see it, unless someone alerts it!
I wish it were different! I wish we could read ifish more freely! I wish we could be totally consistent!
We are committed to doing our best to answer the alerts we get.
Many people don't like the idea of using the alert button, and see it as "tattling" on others. I understand that.
But, as I tell each person who says that, "No one will know but the mods and the alerter." You can be part of the problem, or you can be part of the solution. (You can even be both!)
I almost want to say that it is your responsibility to use that alert button. Yep. I'm going to say that! It takes a village to make a good web site!
I'll write more about all this later. This is enough for now. I just hope you'll get 'fuzzy and familiar' with that alert button!
We have some regular alerters and we are so thankful for them. They are the first people we look at, when inviting new moderators into the group! I hope that I remember to thank those regulars, especially!
We often tell folks who want to be a moderator to start alerting things that they see as problems. A good alerter will be a good mod, and you will become noticed!
So, off I go. It's a rainy, windy day at the coast, and a good day to use that alert button! Thank you so much!

March 11, 2014

So fair, yet so cold like a morning of pale Spring still clinging to Winter's chill.
The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002

Let me tell you about Spring. It's here! And my heart is going dancing!
I love Spring! It brings hope and a fresh outlook on everything! I feel like a battle has been won when we get through the worst of winter, and head into Spring.
I love it! There are tiny plants popping out of the ground and green sprouts popping out of dead looking branches on the trees. Oh, I love those! And Daphne! Have you had your dose of Daphne yet? Make sure if you buy a Daphne plant, that you get the older type, the "odura". The other is pretty, but it doesn't smell good! What an imposter! I bought one and nursed it along and it doesn't smell! I'm so sad about that. So, I bought another, and this one smells awesome! It's struggling, but I think I finally have my dose of Daphne for Spring.
I picked just one sprig and placed it in my car for the trip to the coast. Oh, man! It filled my car and then some!
The other day, I got down on my hands and knees on the forest floor and I found the most interesting things emerging from the mossy carpet! There were things tiny, space-looking golden globes just above the moss that I had never seen before! Bizarre looking plants. I'm watching as they grow, wondering what on earth they will become! Flowers? Something? Nothing at all?
Yesterday, I was sitting in my car, overlooking Tillamook bay, and the entire place was peaceful and still. Not one boat, as far as I could see! But, I saw hope in that 'thar water! In my mind's eye, I imagined Springers under the tiny, dipping waves, (How many? Any? A thousand? Whoo!) and as I fell into a sort of dream, (no, I wasn't driving!) boats popped up, until the bay was covered in tiny rocking boats, just like I've seen on a busy springer fishing day! Nets flew and my heart began to race! I can't wait!
I had come from the bay beach off of the merchant dock in Garibaldi. I love spending time, there. I'm absolutely sure that's where I'm going to find my treasure from Japan. I'm watching for it! Whether it be a candy wrapper with Japanese writing, or a piece of wood off of a boat, I'm going to find something! I walk, with my eyes glued to the sand. broken shells and flat pebbles that collect, there.
Willie loves it, there. He chases after things without any goal of catching them. He stops with no reason and digs in the sand. I jumped in surprise as a man sitting on a log, enjoying a short burst of Spring sunshine says, "I've never seen more happiness in a dog!" I hadn't seen him and I was a bit shocked, but I managed a response."That's for sure!"
There is an artist type guy who comes to this beach and has claimed a huge tree stump that has washed up. It is larger than a small car! He has claimed it as his own creation. He changes it, he paints it, he hammers jewels deep into the wood, and metal studs poke out in curious design.
Nearly every time I visit, the tree stump has changed. It has metal letters hammered into it that state his love for someone special.
The flip side of the artist type come to the beach, also, to destroy his latest work. The jewels in the log disappear and the letters or ripped, torn, or missing. Rotten, angry language attack the artists work by way of paint or campfire burn.
But, the artist simply returns to assuage the damage and bring love and life back to the beach. It's an evolution that is very interesting to watch. It is always changing! Last I saw, the log says "Enjoy! Don't Destroy!" Oh, that one will really disturb the disturbed!
I met the artist, once. I had been watching the evolution of the big old, tree stump. It's the perfect walking distance on the beach for me, and is my turn around point. It was the first time I had seen someone there, and my first thought was, "Aha! The people who destroy!" I walked up to him, with the intent to shame the creeps! But, it was the artist! I was so honored to meet him!
In the winter months, the log doesn't change as much as in the summer, so with Spring's arrival, I'm really looking forward to the next chapter of what is to come! There is so much mystery and hope in Spring! What will yours bring?

March 13, 2014

Oh, my goodness, but what a lot of exclamation points in my last column! It got tedious, I was so sickeningly 'exclaimed!" Spring hits me like that, though. It has been one long stretch of winter, hasn't it? The sunshine hit me like a great big "!"
This morning the sky is that same blue, true, 'dream of a sky', and I can't wait to get out there. There are little white strips of clouds, though. The beginning of the end of it, for a while, I hear. Rain returns to the Pac Northwest until the next period of "!"sunshine"!"
I just peaked at the forecast and it looks like a week or more of the wet stuff, coming. Darn. This sunshine really brought out !!!! Sickeningly so!
I can't find it, but there's a long run of entries in my journal, years back... one in particular that I recall, where I felt guilty for fishing so much. I had more fun, but yes, there was guilt there, too! I abandoned anything I should have done. Bill's truck would be revving in the driveway, and we'd be off. I was full of guilty giggles and salmon filets.
I was a lazy Mother, an absent host on ifish, a rotten house keeper, but, man, was I fishing machine! It was a joke between Bill and I. If we were bored in the boat and not getting immediate bites, we'd say, "But, if we caught another, what would we do with it?" Our freezer was full. But, as soon as we'd say that, our rod tip would go down! I've got to try that, again. But, those pesky fish are smart. They'd know it to be a lie!
A couple memories that strike me... We would be fishing for salmon, back trolling wrapped kwikfish and we'd have a double. They'd probably be chum, but no one knew, until we fought the trolling motor and two fish on, until we brought them both to hand. We'd be laughing, so hard that it was difficult to do any of the tasks, let alone all of them!
Another time found us in the pouring down hail and rain, but the bite was so good neither of us wanted to leave. We soaked through an old poncho that hadn't been used in years. It wasn't rain proof, but it was all we had! We were totally soaked to the bone and freezing, but we didn't care. Now, that's fishing!
I really miss that kind of fishing, but how to get back in the groove?
I think the main problem is that the fish just aren't as available as they once were, and it makes it really hard to get dialed in.
I can't imagine how difficult it must be to be a guide, these days. But, I see people like David Johnson, and he's still pulling it off, bringing daily catches of fish in with happy customers. Talk about dialed in!
Hey! I think that's what we need. Since we lack the motivation to go out and find those fish ourselves, perhaps a week of guided fishing may be in store! If only I could afford that!
I'm sure that between Bill and I, we had several days of hunting fish, before we brought in fish. So, maybe hire the guides that have done the fishless research, and let them take us to where the fish are! It's cheating, but at my age, who cares?
I need that boost into the world of fishing, again! A guided trip, every day on a different river would refresh my confidence. That's what it takes! Confidence!
I'll never forget Stan Fagerstrom's forever mantra, "Expect a fish with every cast!" Yeah! That! That sacred utterance filled with spiritual fish power!
I'm going to go out to the Kilchis this afternoon and expect a fish with every cast. I'll let you know how I do!
If I come back with tons of "!!!!" you will know!

March 14, 2014

It's just true. Good things happen to people who are thankful.
I'm not reporting any great fish catches, although I gave it my best.
I didn't catch. I did cast!
I'm still going to fill my columns with exclamation points, though!!!
I was walking on the river bed, head down, as usual, and began to sing what came naturally to me. "His name is wonderful! His name is wonderful! His name is wonderful, Jesus my Lord!" I love that song!
It's not Willie's favorite song, as it's not fast nor zippy. Not a good tune to run to. (He ran, anyhow.) But, I was in a thankful mood. A peaceful mood.
The very minute I began to sing, though, I spotted this most awesome rock! It looked sort of like these.

St. Pattys
Click to zoom

There is this type of rock that I find on the river that are crystal, sparkly and beautiful! The pictures never reveal their true beauty. They are as white and sparkly as the white foam that rides the current on the dipping waves of the river. You know the ones! The ones that ride up and down on the current like carousel ponies? :)
These agates, or rocks or whatever they are, have these small round bumps on them. See above. They are white, and sparkle like all get out. They are never large. At least, I've never found a big one. I would die to know how these are formed, and what the scientific name of them are! Anyone? I'm sure it's a type of quartz, but why the little bumps?
I have a small display rack of them on my bathroom counter over the sink. These are my most special rocks.
Actually, I grade them! The ones over the sink are the best. There aren't as many, and I have to constantly trade them out, as the rack is fairly small. As I find the newer best ones, others have to go to the larger rack of grade ll! Bill makes me sort through them and reduce them to only the very best, as he's afraid that the rack will break under the weight!
Then, there is a glass canister by the door of grade lll rocks. The grade lV and below go on the pathway to the river, but every high water, I lose a few.
Most of my special rocks I can thank someone for. I do believe that Andrew, my deceased son is responsible for helping me to find many of them, and I can pick out and show you which ones. Does that sound strange?
But, I can tell you what I was doing when I found each and every one of my most special rocks!
I can tell you that I believe with my entire heart that Jesus helped me to find this rock, and therefore, it is extra special! It's me God rock! :)
I really feel like I was being rewarded somehow, that it is a gift for my peaceful, thankful attitude, yesterday! That God was telling me that life can be good, even though there are terrible heartbreaks that happen to us all. You know, like losing my son.
But, life is still good.
I believe that God wants each and every one of us to be happy, to have everything in life that we ever wanted, if only we believe and if only we try to be the very best that we can be. To love each other, and to be thankful for one another, no matter what.

March 17, 2014

It's that green day and I didn't even realize it! Good thing that it's early enough for me to wear something green and to get some green food coloring for 'me green mashed taters! Aye! Maybe some green beer, too, since David likes beer. I'm not so much a fan, but hey- we have to celebrate! If there is any reason to celebrate, by golly, we are doing it! And if that means drinking beer, then I'm going to do that, too!
Phew! I think we've made it! We have made it through winter!
No matter how many years I do,! I forget that in the cold, dark, rainy months of winter, people get grouchy! They snap at one another and my mailbox grows full of alerts of personal attacks and spats on the board. The mod board is busy and stressful!
I'm always shocked in the spring time, when the weather turns nice and my mailbox is empty. Is it broken? Is my mail not directed correctly? What? I worry, but then-
Oh! It's Spring Time! (The ringy ringy ring time, birds sing, hey ding! a dinga ding!) -and no body has time nor reason to bicker, because they are all outside fishing... where they should be!
We have a blue true dream of sky where everything is green and lush and yesssss..... (Oh, how I love E. E. Cummings!) Read that poem! I love it!
Anyhow, I'm glad. I'm glad that you are happy. Spread it around! It is so infectious! It dances from one to another, those leaping greenly spirts of trees!
Do something nice for someone, today and see for yourselves! Say something nice to someone on the board, and spread it even further! What comes natural (kindness) is so much easier when the sun shines!

March 20, 2014

I'm writing this with the last little bit of endurance that I have!
My stupid eye... I shouldn't say that, as I'm so thankful for my vision, but... IT HURTS so much! I don't know what it is, but I really should go get it looked at. AGAIN.
I've probably had what? 15 surgeries on my eye? I don't know, but I have had many surgeries! I'm finally to the point that I have dreamed of, my entire life.
I recall sitting in bed as a very young child in this small blue room. It was summer time, and the entire room was a blur of blue paint and yellow sunshine, streaming in the window. I must have been around five or six.
I remember so clearly thinking how awesome it would be to see things when I woke up, without trying to find my glasses on the sewing machine, which acted as my night stand. I just wanted so badly to see first thing in the morning, without my glasses like my Mom did, and like all my brothers and sisters did. What would it be like to open your eyes in the morning, and be able to see?!
I held that song that played on my little radio, close to heart- "I can see clearly now, (the rain is gone.)"
Well, I know what it's like now! How awesome is that?!
Most people get older and have declining vision. Not mine! Mine is better than ever! It's not like your vision, not like regular vision, but I can open my eyes and see without my glasses and see clearly, now! Whoo hooo!
The only problem is that sometimes the places where they cut into me hurt so badly!
With a connective tissue disorder, sometimes the tissue doesn't heal where there was a wound. So, where they cut into me, there are still holes in my eyes and they HURT! They call them "blebs" and I have several! I have holes in my eye! LOL.
Some docs say that it is because those blebs dry out and have trouble staying wet and lubricated. Some say that they don't know why they hurt, but regardless, I'll tell you, they hurt!
It hurts worse when I have to spend too much time on the computer, so people! Please be nice on the board, today and don't cause the mods too much work! I hurt!
So, with that said, I'm going out to the beautiful back porch to soak up some of that beautiful green that I see out there! You know, the bazillion colors of green, the beautiful pink blossoms on the trees, and the everything that is wet, misty and SPRING! The cool, damp Spring air feels so good on my eyes!
(I mowed the lawn, yesterday and it's beautiful!)

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

March 21, 2014

Oh, my word, talk about pain. I was really in a fit, yesterday. Eye pain is the abs worst! I felt like I had something in my eye that was constantly stabbing me, all day.
ER didn't have anyone that could figure out what to do for me. I mean, imagine as a regular doc/surgeon looking into a normal looking gal's eye and seeing the remnants of 15 eye surgeries. Little holes that the eye docs call "blebs" all over the place. Hm? What is a good doc to do?
Casey Eye didn't have one doc in, yesterday afternoon, of course. Just my luck! So, I have an appointment, today.
Eye injuries heal extremely fast. I'm better, today. Not great, but better. So, I'm going in to see what they say, just so that I can be assured that I won't have to travel back there, soon. I'll be traveling to Tillamook and I'd hate to have to head right back here.
I feel like I'm on the longest stretch of good health that I've been on, in ages. It's been nearly two years since I've been in the hospital. In some ways, I feel like my time is up, and in others, I feel like maybe I'll be fine forever, now!!! (Yeah, the latter!) I've paid my dues!
Oh! We are in for a true blue dream of sky, this weekend!
Every day spent in Oregon City reminds me of everything this house needs to have done to it. The garden! The lawn! The weeds! Oh, my! And then, to Tillamook and the garden! The lawn! The weeds! Oh, my!
I do love outdoors work, and I'm really excited about the sunshine! There are fish being caught in the Willamette! Life is good!

March 25, 2014

I have to run Willie at least three times a day. It's imperative, if he's not going to drive us crazy! A tired dog is a good dog, and boy oh boy-- if he isn't tired, he is a pain!
Thank God for my son, David, as he takes shift two and three, when I'm staying in Oregon City. I couldn't do it, and I couldn't handle Willie, without it!
We have learned every field in which we can run Willie and every park in which we can't.
When I'm at the coast, Willie can and does go outside on his own. It's a 'Disney Land for Dogs', here, and he loves it. There is digging and swimming and running, oh my!
He still drives me bonkers with the whinies, though.
The very minute I set down my fork after dinner, he knows. Man, but dogs have their schedules down pat. It's that time! I feel like the darn post office! Neither snow nor rain nor heat nor gloom of night stays these couriers from the swift completion of their appointed rounds!
So true, and so obnoxious. He won't give for anything! I am his master, yet I feel like his employee. If I go for even a half cup of coffee after dinner, he paces and whines and I want to bonk him!
So, I go sit out in the rain with an umbrella, or two raincoats and a hat, in weather I wouldn't even fish in, while I sing songs and he runs laps. Pheh. What is going on, here? What have I created?
Then, it's down to the river to dig some holes while I count his sand push ups. He has this thing where I shine a light and he pounces on the sand. "One, Two," All the way to "Fifty!" He is so strong!

I'm still singing songs from Christmas, too. The neighbors, I'm sure, think I'm plum crazy, and I'd have to agree. "He flies round the field with the greatest of ease" only goes so long. He needs "Outside the snow is falling and friends are calling, "Yooo hoooo!" You know it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together, with you!" Oh, Willie! Must I?
Yes. I must and I do. (You hooo)

I just accomplished the morning run, and then it was inside to dry off and get his treat. A treat!? What for? Driving Mom Crazy?
I'm sick. I should be in bed. But, like I said, I can't be in bed. Willie needs to run, so I drag, sniveling and sneezing through the sloppy rain and muddy fields singing, "Giddeeyap, Giddeyap, Giddeyap, let's go! (Sniff, cough, cough) Let's look at the show!"
I have to smile, just a bit. I guess he's keeping me alive. His tail wags, and I've never seen such pure, unadulterated happiness in my life. He knows all the words to all the songs, and if I change them up a bit, he gets really excited!
My newest is "Just sit right back and you'll hear a tale, a tale of a fateful trip, That started from this tropic port, aboard this tiny ship." Oh, Willie. Dear Willie, what have you done to me?
And thank you, Dear Flipper, for this last...
"His name is Willie, Willie, Willie the Springer... He is so fine. I'm glad he is mine. His name is Willie, Willie, Willie the springer! Willie the Springer, and he is mine!"
You should see his tail!

March 29, 2014

I found out what those agates I find that are my very favorite are! A member of ifish wrote in that they are Druzy Quartz. (Scroll down to the white ones)
I have linked it, for your interest!
Those are the ones! Yes!)

St. Pattys
Druzy Quartz

I have been collecting agates since I was a kid. When I first got married, I hooked my (now) ex on collecting agates. We lived at Gleneden beach and we'd spend hours on our knees on the beach, searching for agates. When we'd finally look up, hours later, we'd be miles away from home! I loved those days!
But, I'm still doing it, and here he is, wealthy and successful, or some stupid thing. I bet he's envious! I'm still poor and collecting agates! LOL
I heard he just got back from Europe. Well, I found Druzy Quartz, so there!
I took the snow icons down. I love doing that, each Spring! I do love my snow pics, and it's equally fun to put up when the weather is right, but now?
I'm looking forward to sun! If you don't know what I'm talking about, does this ring a bell?

Time for Spring!

I do love Spring! I was having fun noticing the extreme greens all around me, yesterday while on a walk in the woods with the Wilster. (My dog)
Those wet green leaves slapped me in the face, while walking down the trail. They were so thick and healthy! I swear if I were a vegetarian, I wouldn't hesitate to take a bite, without even knowing if they were poison. They appeared so thick and healthy- like a juicy, fresh veggie steak! Mmmm!
Weird thought, I know, but those were my thoughts!
Could we all use a dose of sunshine? How long till the weather clears up?
It sure is scary around here, with the chance of landslides. I don't think I'd even be aware of that risk, if it weren't for the news of late. What a terrifying, awful experience those people have gone through! Nature can be so frightening! It makes me feel so tiny to think the mountains that I adore, that tower around me, could simply give way. Yikes! And we are surrounded!
So silly, though, to worry about such things, because we all have to go, sometime, so? Enjoy life! Get out there! NO FEAR!
I simply cannot wait till the Spring Chinook show around here. I'm so past ready to hook into something like that! The thought of it is driving me mad, lately! Do you even know how long it's been since I've hooked fish? Oh, my gosh!
And to think I used to post 'guilt' columns apologizing to both the mod crew and to the ifishers, because I was constantly out fishing! I, Jennie Logsdon Martin was dialed in!
Now, I read posts on ifish of the thousands of others out there, dialed in and catching fish, daily.
It is my goal to get back to where I was! Back to the fishing days of old! I will get there! Join me! It's never too late!

Those were the days, my friend,
(And they will never end!)

March 31, 2014

Tis the day before the fools Day! Beware! What will become of you, this year?
Remember way back, when I did this? Muhhahaha.
That was fun! That was a lot of work to get folks to write those articles and put it together! I wish I had something fun, this year! I still have time...
An ifish member sent me a link to a nastygram thread on some other board that appears to be full of banned ifish members, complaining about ifish.
You know, I usually don't go to those sites when they are brought to my attention, but without thinking, I clicked the link. Hoh boy!
If it had been even partial truth, I'd have been interested, maybe even insulted, but not one thing in the "awful Jennie" part was familiar to me. As the story goes, once upon a time I rented a house on the Kilchis, and then had Bill move in, or something like that. An entire Harlequin novel about (Hey! I'm famous!) me, that I had no clue ever happened to me! Oh, what a good story they spun!
People are just so misinformed, and haters 'gonna' hate.
The internet can be a fascinating and educational place. A day doesn't go by that I google something that I want to know. You just have to be so careful what you believe, and what source you get things from, from medical information, to reviews for products and restaurants. Most often reviews are written by people who have something bad to say. The people who have good reports seldom go out of their way to write about it. That's too bad, isn't it!?
When someone gets banned from ifish, or otherwise infracted, sometimes I don't even know that the person is having troubles, but you can be sure that I'll be the one who will take the blame for that action.
Even if I were to quit ifish all together. If I walked away today, and never came back, and in a year or so someone were banned, I'd be the one to get the hate mail. I'd be the one blamed, even if I weren't moderating or admin-ing!
There is a team of over 20 people behind the scenes at ifish who have the tools to initiate part time or permanent dismissal from ifish.
No one person has the permission to do it, without If I wanted to bring back someone who was previously banned, I can't do that on my own, either. At least without other moderator votes that agree with my idea of reinstatement.
I like that I'm not the all powerful voice behind ifish. Trying to convince someone that this is true, however, is a whole different beast! People just have it in their minds that it's all about me, and all my fault.
People have it in their minds that I once a welfare Mommy, who had a rented house on the Kilchis, and that Bill was the brains behind marketing the site.
It is true, you know. I read it on the internet! I have certainly learned that people will think what they want to think, and there is not one darn thing you can do about it. So, it just doesn't matter, now, does it? I just go about living my life the way I live it, and not worry about what others think. It's just not worth my time and it's certainly not worth being upset about!
I'd mutter that old saying, "I just can't win", but the funny thing is that regardless of all this misinformation! still feel like I've won!
I just plain can't think of living a better life than I've been blessed to live. I'm alive! --and other than a couple awful events, (my son dying, being one of them) I wouldn't go back and change a day of it!