Fishing The Coast, Oregon and Washington

February 2014
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February 1, 2014

Just have to say it. Happy February! It's my Birthday month, don't you know? The only person who has more Birthday parties is our Heavenly Father. I take my Birthday very seriously!
On my Birthday, I eat cake for breakfast. When it gets to be my Birthday week, look out! It gets very party like!
I think the reason I am so into my Birthday, (and anyone who has a Birthday who is around me-) is because of how fragile life is.
I am well acquainted with how fragile life is. I've been to the other side! I live, every day, not knowing if I'll make it to the end of the day, and so should you! So, when I get to the end of the year, by golly, we are having a party! Not New Year's, but the end of MY year. My Birthday!
Thing is, though, I told myself that when I got to my 10th anniversary of my dissection, I was going to the Caribbean. This is that year, and I've never been to those awesome, sunny beaches. It looks as if I never will go! Darnit! I am not wealthy! I even told myself that I didn't care if I was poor, that I would put it on credit, but now that I know how hard it is to pay off credit, well....
So, unless I get the windfall from heaven, or win the lottery, I will only dream about Anguilla and Turks and Caicos and all of those sunny, awesome places.
If you go to this page and scroll down to 2004, you will see a red "December" crossed out. That is the month that my aorta dissected. That December was the month that I walked from my bathroom sink to my bed and knew without one doubt that I was dying.
It happened so casually. I kid you not. It was casual. I felt this sensation in my upper chest, and I knew I was a goner. I put my hand to my chest, and so very casually called down to Bill.
"Bill? Could you call 911? I am dissecting."
I knew it could happen, and I knew it just did happen! I had been prepared for this for 20 years or more, when the doctors told me it could happen. But, I wasn't the least bit afraid! So weird!
Bill called and I lay down to die. I asked for the kids, and as I held their hands, I told them how much I loved them, and how proud I was of them. I wanted to say my good bye that I had never thought to rehearse. Their reaction? "Mom! You'd better not be faking it. I have homework, tonight!" LOL. That was Andrew.
The ambulance took me to Tillamook Hospital, and frankly, they didn't believe anything was wrong. Finally, I convinced them to call my cardiologist, and they had me do a CT scan. "By golly, she's bleeding in her chest! Quick! Let's get her to Portland!" Ya think?
Without even notifying my family, (Bill, the kids, etc...) they took me to OHSU in Portland, and I was prepped for the surgery, literally, of a life time.
So weird. I don't recall it in the least, but I made phone calls from the ambulance. To my Dad, to my sister, and to crabbait, because I couldn't get a hold of Pete. I let them all know I was dissecting, and that I was going to surgery at OHSU. I'd love to hear those phone calls!
I never did call Bill or the kids. I probably thought surely they knew! But, they didn't! When they got up in the morning, they expected me to be in Tillamook Hospital, but I was in surgery in Portland!
When I got to OHSU that night, they prepped me, and all around me were my family. "How the heck did they get there?" I wondered. "How did they know?" Shock is a weird thing, and I was in shock. I had told them and I couldn't recall it.
I was told that I was a real 'sass' in the hospital. I guess shock can do that to a person. I told the thoracic surgeon that I was NOT having surgery, by golly! Not until my cardiologist, Dr. Menashe was there to tell them it was OK!! Dr. Song, who I have come to absolutely adore, told me that I was so having surgery! It was either that or die!
I don't recall any of this. Dr. Song told me about it, later!
Confused, I asked the nurses why my sister was there. The nurses took it that I didn't want her there, and they asked her to leave! I didn't mean that!!! But, I wasn't 'with it' enough to correct them! LOL.
It was then that the world went dark. All black and dark, except for one thing. I saw my Mother in the corner of the room, all lit up like an angel. She was up towards the ceiling. My Mother had died, years before, but she was there! I saw her!
13 hours of surgery later, (and six on the heart and lung machine!) I was taken to ICU. I woke to see my brother, David, walking back and forth, beside my bed, trying to get me to wake up and laugh. He was singing funny songs, or saying something funny that we said when we were little... can't recall what- but he was crying at the same time. I guess it's really scary to see someone so hooked up to machines. It was whatever he was doing, though, that made me shake myself awake. I didn't like to see my brother crying! I had to prove to him that I was OK.
The next days were a blur.
How did I get into this, this morning? Why am I talking about this? I guess because it's huge. It is what I am made of, today.
I'm made of two things. My son's death and my near death.
So many things remind me of both, and they are often flaunted in front of me. Not purposely, but things just remind me of these two things. These two things are NOT a few of my favorite things!
Yesterday, I was driving up Molalla Ave. and I passed the Hilltop Chapel, where I made arrangements for my son's cremation after I found him (short stab in the gut) on that awful day.
I pass that chapel often, but yesterday it really stabbed me in the gut as I passed by. Deeply. With a thud. Memories washed over me, as if it were yesterday.
Willie, my dog, was in the front seat of the car, as I half gasped, half cried and yelled out some profane word. I have not used profane words for anything, at least very often, until my son died. Now, I seem to use one word often, when this pops into my head. It's anger and grief and shock and awful memories that live deep down in me. Thank God that it is less and less often that it rears its ugly head. But, yesterday, it did. It sure did.
When I called out, Willie was shocked by the guttural noise I made, and he responded in a way that made me feel for him, instead of for myself. I pulled over, buried my head in his fur, and we cried.
Later, I was reading facebook and enjoying it, until I saw an all too familiar picture of a dissected aorta from a friend's account. Dangit! Why, these memories, yesterday? Had I not "felt" enough for one day?
His title on his post, "Check out a ripped apart aorta". Sheesh! Just what I wanted to see! NOT.
And, thus, my column, this morning.
Most people would think, though, that after these things, I would have a dark, desperate soul. No. I'm not dark. Not at all. Not even slightly.
It comes out, like I described above, in fleeting awful moments. Moments that pass.
The rest of my life is filled with joy. Joy to be alive. Joy to love my Heavenly Father. Joy to see the sun rise, each day. Joy, to be with my living son. Thankful for so much. Excited for my Birthday! I can't wait! (Giggle!)
The bad just makes the good so much better! It's that old ying yang, and it's so equal! The worse you have it, the better you have it! At least, it is for me!
Everything in my life turns to song, to music, to joy!
My son says to me on quite a regular basis. "Mom? Does everything have to turn to song?"
Yes. It do. :)
Everything sounds like music to me! I can't help it! Say a sentence, and I'll hear a song from the past and I sing it with that sentence in it. It has always driven my kids crazy, but I think they secretly like it. I like it, and that's all that matters!
So, since I cannot go to Turks and Caicos, I think I'll turn the heat up really high in the house, today. I think I'll drag my dog's little swimming pool into the front room and fill it with warm water. Maybe throw some blankets around it and make egg salad sandwiches, and pretend I'm at the beach. Life is what you make it, you know! And you better hurry up, because life is short! So, make it good, today!
Yesterday, I sprung a leak under my kitchen sink. I was going to fix it, by golly. All by myself.
Unfortunately, it's a long story, but I failed. I went to Home Depot and I went to Fred Meyer. I got the parts. I got the tools. I replaced the P-trap just fine, but when I turned on the sink, I sprung yet another leak, further up. I could not unscrew that part, and instead, when we tried, it crumbled in my hand! Argh! Plummer! Plummer! Cha Ching!
I'd much rather be ticked at that, than remember all the things I wrote earlier, today. It's bad, but comparatively, I can handle it!
I want to end on that note, and pretend I'm a regular sort, where these are the biggest challenges that I face in life.
I don't know what I'd do without nice people. My neighbor, Scott, is so awesome. So nice! He let me borrow a wrench that fit the pipe, because neither David or I could unscrew it with our bare hands. When it crumbled, I texted him and he came on over to give it a try. Thank God for nice people! Scott has been so helpful to me! I love my neighbors!
The sun is up, now, and I'm off to take Willie for a walk. I think after that, I'll jump in the hot tub, and soak for a while. That, too, will remind me of the Caribbean!
Life IS good, after all.

February 4, 2014

Whoo hooo! The show is here! Time is flying, my friends!
I can't believe it's actually time for the show! I have to go, today to set up the cam, to set up the table, and all of the goodies!
I have to go get extra tickets at the office for the working folks, (that would be me and a bunch of ifishers!) Are you going to come see us in booth 1249? I hope so!
What cold it is, out! I got up to do my daily dog walk, bundled up in a bunch of clothes. You'd think that my circulation would be good, and that would warm me up, right? Nope! I'm freezing! My toes are like blocks of ice!
Came home and worked in the garage getting a few things ready, and brrrr~! After that, all I want to do is lay on my heated blanket and get warm with Willie! He's such an awesome cuddle dog. He keeps me warmed up! He lays across my lap and snores. I love it!
But, no. No rest for the weary and cold! I'm out the door to vacuum the dog hair and dirt out of my car, load it up with those big bar stools, and boxes of camo hats. Rubber maid boxes of show stuff that gets used, once a year! My web cam, my table cloth for the table, my Plexiglas sheet. I have the whole set up!
Pete comes later, today to set up the pop up booth and the carpets. He is so awesome. He helps, every year! Thank you, Pete! I can't wait to hug him. He's a good hugger.
But, I miss Bill so much, and I know I can't see him or the river, until the show is completed! After that, Willie and I zip to the coast to go be at the river. I can't wait!
The show is fun, though, and I just adore seeing all the people. I'm going to go buy a big hefty bottle of hand sanitizer. I don't want any of what bug people have to offer, this year. Nope! Got a flu shot, and I'm ready to go!
I bought a new kerosene heater off of Craiglist. It's brand new and I got it for a really good price! Met this really nice man who sold it to me. Craigslist is fun! I meet the nicest people selling things! I have furnished my entire home off of Craiglist, too!
Alright, off I go. Time to clean the car a bit, and then wake David up so that he can help me load it! Ta ta!
Oh! And watch for the URL for the webcam! I'll have it up, soon!

February 5, 2014

Oops! They did it, again! The www.ifish.net booth at the Sportsmen's show is listed in the directory as "Verticalscope" instead of ifish. So, please note that we are in booth #1249 or listed under VerticalScope!
I'm really nervous about driving this week, and even a bit more nervous about my son driving. He'll be manning the booth in the evenings. I'll be there days. Actually, he's a darn good driver, but he has never driven in the snow. I guess there are a lot of us out there who are fairly inexperienced, so great! A whole lot of silly drivers!
I was there to set up, yesterday. Thank God for Pete, who was there to set up the heavy parts! And thank God for Larry Lund who helped me with my heavy chairs! He's the guy with Togiak Lodge. I want to go there, SO badly!!! He has the most awesome lodge and some of our ifish guides guide out of there. I guess they have a killer run. I just want to go!!!
I set up the web cam. It's here!
It won't be up till open hours, but now you have it! It was really easy to set up this year. Thank God! If you have trouble getting to it, I'll work on it, later, but I think it works! My sister could see it from the Garden Show in Seattle! That was fun!
Alrighty. I'm off to see the wizard! Have a great day, and see you at the show! Please, please drive carefully this week! I need each and every one of you!

February 6, 2014

Oh boy oh boy oh boy am I tired. I have got to figure out a way to do these kwikfish sales without the show thing. If I don't, I don't know what I'll do because I just can't hack this show one more year! It's just too hard for me! I'm two days in and exhausted. I get these cramps in my legs and can't sleep, so then I get more tired and yikes!
The snow forecast kind of has me up in arms. I don't mind snow so much, but ice scares me! I got a hotel, just in case, for tonight. I hope I can cancel it and just drive home!
Lucky for me my ifish workers are outdoorsmen who drive in the snow and know what they are doing. They will be there. The show must go on!
So, I guess this show and the snow separates the boys from the men. Which am I? LOL. I'll be there! I will!
Sorry about the link to the cam. Just follow this thread. I'm having IT troubles, and I had to change the IP. So, follow the new link, above if you want to see the cam! It is updated on the thread, linked above!
See you there! Rain or snow or frozen precip!

February 8, 2014

Remember that thing about it being my Birthday month? About how party like my life will be? Ha! Um... I think I overscheduled and now I'm panicking. Stayed up way too late the last couple nights worrying about things. Do you know what that's like? The late night worries? Argh.
To begin, I'm sick. That's the base problem. I think I'm feeling a bit better, but we'll see. That might just be the magic that happens when you get to sleep at home with your puppy dog, and everything seems better. :)
The following is my calendar of [tragic] events. I'm hoping that writing it down will make it better. What is overshadowing things is that the extra costs of the storm, including the lack of kwikfish sales and the hotel costs have put me in a situation where the kwikfish thing will cost me money, instead of bringing any in. That's one big bummer!
Today, Feb. 8th: Was going to take a sick day, but it didn't work out, so I'm going to shower and hit the road.
Tonight, I'm staying at the hotel, unless the roads are magically open and easy. I'm going to miss Willie again, so much! I really dislike hotels, when I used to love them! I just miss my family!
Feb. 9th: I will work the show, and load up my stuff and go home. YAY!
Feb. 10th: I have a cancer doctor appointment, and those always worry the heck out of me. It also reminds me that I'm late with my aortic appointment, and that double really worries me! After my appointment, Willie and I are going to head to the coast, because I miss Bill and Revvie and my chickens dearly! Hi Bill! I love you and only you!
Feb. 11th: Appointment in Tillamook at 11:00.
Feb. 12th: Figure out how my new foreign exchange student will get from my house to Marylhurst every day. Drive back to Oregon City. :(
Feb. 13th: Pick up my exchange student at PDX.
Feb. 14th: Take my new student to Marylhurst, since we won't have the bus situation ironed out, yet.
Feb. 15th: Pack to fly out the next day to Vegas!
Feb. 16th: Fly out and see Bruno Mars that night.
Feb. 17th: Relax?
Feb. 18th: Fly home!
Feb. 19th till my Birthday: EAT CAKE.
Do you see why I'm stressed? Writing it down didn't help much! Such a good thing I have David to help me. Yikes. That is too much for me. Period. I really feel like telling the exchange folks that I can't do this, but that would be rotten, so on with the show! I am excited to have a new student. I just want it to go well! Busy life!
I just feel like telling Bill to forget this month for me being in Tillamook, though. I mean, when!?! Oh well!
OK, better get going! It will fly by, and all will be well! I certainly won't be bored!

February 9, 2014

Good morning! Well, I made it through the show, but only with the awesome God-like help of the members and mods of ifish! Thank you, guys! You are so awesome! (In the real sense of the word!)
I LOVE YOU!
I have been sick all week, and I made it the first three days, but the evenings were taken on by the mods and members. Then, the last two days were totally taken over by Pete and Ampersat! They opened and closed! Today, I'm still home, iced in, in my driveway, half sick, still. Yes, I'm knitting coozies. :) I don't know how to knit, but I'm being teased on the board for not driving in this stuff.
Tease me all you like. I'm a good snow driver, but I don't believe anyone is a good ice driver! It just has a mind of its own, and I don't want to test it nor trust the other drivers!
So, so thankful to everyone, though!
Sales are way down on kwikfish, due to the storm, so I have to figure out how to move the rest of these, the best way. I wonder if I can sit at Fisherman's a couple mornings, and have you all come to pick yours up? That would be so nice!
I feel like a bit of a sissy, but I honestly couldn't make it out of the driveway without hitting my roomies cars. Plus, they are coated in ice! All of them!
What a storm, huh? Still nothing like we had when we were kids, but still, a good one! I am just bummed that I didn't have time to enjoy it. It has been go, go, go lately!
So, if you didn't get a chance to pick up your kwik, watch for a thread where I'll sell them online. It will happen in about a week!

February 10, 2014

Well, this is going to be the longest I've ever gone without seeing Bill. If I don't go to Tillamook tomorrow, I won't go at all until I get back from Vegas. Yikes!
The weather! The weather! The weather!
It's not bad once I get to the main roads. Not at all, but my neighborhood is awful! Still!
I had to giggle. There was a guy putting on chains in front of my house, just an hour ago! Just to go around the block!
So, I got the Kwikfish up for sale! They are here!
First come, first serve! So, go get them!
Have a great day! I've been busy doing paypal code. Yucko!

February 14, 2014

Yes. I'm overscheduled! Pheh!
5 hours sleep last night.
I was supposed to pick up Yumi, our new foreign exchange student at 2:30 at PDX. Got there, parked, and went in. Phone rings.
"Hi there! Jennie? Yumi's plane was cancelled."
Drive home and wait, wait, wait. Hear that she'll be in at 11:00 pm.
Nope. E mail!
"Yumi had to take a bus and will be in at 7:00 am."
Who am I to be frustrated, really? I mean, poor Yumi has to ride a bus from San Francisco all night! Yuck!
I snuggled into my covers and pulled them up to my nose for a short but very restful 5 hour sleep.
I'm buried in kwikfish packaging. Up to my nose, but those aren't so snuggly.
I have to find a TV for Yumi's room. Just something for 4 weeks. Anyone have an extra small TV? I'll search Craigslist.
OK. Off to pick up Yumi.
Oh! BTW, we are getting short on Kwiks. If you want one, you'd better get on it, or pay dearly on ebay when folks try to make money on them. Do you know that we have found them on ebay for like 70 bucks, after they are no longer available? How silly! But, this is, after all, America!
I leave for Las Vegas on Sunday. I feel like a whirlwind! I miss Bill and Revvie and my river.
How I long to put on my waders and feel the river's tug at my knees. I can feel the wet air on my face, hear the wind in the trees and almost see the fish in the currents!

February 15, 2014

I just adore Yumi! She is the sweetest girl! So cute and so polite! Very interesting to talk, even though we can't communicate great, yet. It will come! That's what she is here for!
Yesterday I took her to Freddies and we got an idea what each other liked to eat. We giggled the whole time, picking out our favorite junk foods. Then, we got a latte at Starbucks! She said that the lattes are smaller in Japan.
Is everything smaller in Japan? Is America gluttonous? Don't answer! I have an idea what the correct response should be.
Anyhow.... after that, we took Willie to the park in the rain and went for a walk. She adores Willie. That's a good thing, as Willie is pretty prominent in my life. I bet she thinks, "Does she take her dog everywhere?" Yes. Everywhere!
So, Willie and I are going to get in the car and take Yumi to her Tri Met orientation this morning.
Willie and I will go for a walk, while she's in school.
Tomorrow I take my first vacation from ifish. (And yes, from Willie too!)
Don't get me wrong. I've gone away before, but each time I find myself logging in to visit, or to moderate a quick thread, etc. This time? Huh uh! I'm not going to! I'm going to log out this afternoon, and just be gone. The only bummer is that I have to read my e mail. Or do I? Because I get mod alerts via e mail and there is no way to turn that off. Maybe.... Maybe no computer at all? Nah. Not ready for that!
I hope you had a wonderful Valentine's Day! Much love...

February 20, 2014

St. Francis de Sales
"It is far better to do a few things well than to undertake many good works and leave them half done."

That's how I'm feeling, today. I took on too much and I failed at most of them, because of it.
Yumi has moved on to another home. I took a foreign exchange student on, being certain to tell the leaders that I had a trip planned but that my son would be home. She didn't feel at home, being home without me, so while I was gone, she switched homes. It wasn't only that one trip, but that I had plans also to go home to Tillamook. I haven't been home in weeks, and I miss it!
So, Yumi is gone. :( It made me cry. It made Yumi cry, too! We had so much fun in the little time I knew her. She and I had one of those magic student relationships. We instantly took to one another and giggled, and I couldn't wait to be with her more, so that I could curl her hair, and help her with makeup and talk girl talk! I just so wanted to have her here.
But, alas. She has a new good home and she is happy, because that family isn't nearly so busy as I am. We have a fairly unconventional "family" here. One that doesn't always eat dinner together at the table. People in Japan do that. They eat dinner together all the time. At least traditional families do, and she is from a traditional family. I want that. I want to eat dinner together each night, but it just doesn't always work that way. When I was at Bill's, and the kids were little, we always had dinner together. That was nice. I miss those days.
Then, when I was feeling so swamped, due to the show, I ended up not even being able to get there, the last two days. So, feeling so overbooked ended up that I didn't do any of my things well. I did all of them half way. That doesn't feel good.
Nonetheless, I've been busy! So busy! I went from getting ready for the show, to doing the show, and then coming home to send out all of the kwikfish in like three days! I even goofed on that! If you got a tee shirt with your order, and you didn't order a tee shirt, please let me know! Someone else got someone else's tee shirt! I posted about it on the board. I guess that one mistake out of 300 postal packages isn't bad... that is, unless I find out there is more!!! Yikes! :)
I think I did alright, though.
Sigh... I guess the good news is that I'm going home! I can't wait to see the river and Revvie and Bill! Here I come!
I tried to do too much. I got through it, but I am not totally proud of how well I did. I told the folks at the foreign exchange office that I'm blocking out December through February. It's just not a good time for me to take on students. With the Christmas party and then the show and the kwikfish, it's just not possible for me to do a good job of any of it!
My Mom used to say, "Jack of all trades, master of none!" Yikes!
Oh! The trip to Vegas went OK. I ordered disabled tickets, knowing that I can't stand a long time, any more. I could have ordered great tickets, as I was very early in securing them.
They were so nice, those Ticketmaster people! They said they'd come get me at my room and help me to my seat. Wow!
Well, none of that happened. It's a long story, and I'll write about it, but man, oh man. It turned out that I was able to stay at the concert for 20 minutes, and had to leave. I couldn't stand up, any more. They didn't have disabled seating, there, even though I paid for it.
I still had an OK time, but had I known, I wouldn't have gone at all. Bruno is so cute, though! Their band is amazing and entertaining! And I did enjoy what I saw! I'm all bruised, because I ended up in the mosh pit! I tried to take it, but I just couldn't! I'm not 21 and I can't stand up long! LOL

February 22, 2014

I really wish I'd not raised my kids so that they expected everything to be Disney-like. I really do.
It didn't work out well.
I wanted so much for my kids. I wanted them to love life like I did.
I did things like put their little plastic pool in the living room in the winter, throw blankets around, and turn the heat up. We had pool parties in December!
But, life is hard. I don't mean that in a whiny way. I mean that in all truth. It is hard!
Maybe it is not Disney like, but it is loveable!
I get to thinking about how hard everything is to remember. It's harder and harder to "think" as you get older. Believe me! But, how much you have to think about is hard for anyone, even with the most fresh and young minds!
First, you are to have a job and a family. That's a full time job in itself.
But little things that add up- Everything from oil changes to insurance numbers, to registration papers, to when every payment in your household is due. We have to sign up for utilities, remember the account numbers or web sites, set payments up to pay it by bank, or remember to pay it by a certain date on the internet, and make sure that things are secure. That, for as many companies as you want to do business with! Even at minimum, four to five utilities and mortgages or rent!
There are broken cars, and broken windows and broken refrigerators to fix! So, you have to call someone to fix those things. For that, you'll need a phone book or Hey! The internet! Hey! That's easy!
But, wait! In order to have internet, you have to order internet, set it up from modem to router to computer, (which you'll have to buy a computer, first (or hey! Let's get five!) ,... and don't forget the correct cables! Set it up, and hook it all up.
But, wait! You need to have that someone come out from the internet company you chose to get you going.
Oh, yeah! Add yet another payment to those monthly scheduled payments, and pay them by bank or by Aha! That computer! Now, we have a computer so that you have internet to look up the number for the refrigerator man, too!
Numbers. How many do you have in your head? There is Aunt Sally, and your cousin Joe. There are often-dialed numbers like 911 floating around in your head.
Learn that social security number and keep it in your head, too. I still know my phone number from when I was a child! Get that out of my head! I'm running out of space!
How bout when a credit card is somehow compromised and you have to change every account associated with it to a new credit card number? (I'm going to scream!)
For extra protection, we need pin numbers. Pin numbers for this one and that one and one for over thar.
Do you have your credit card numbers memorized? Some people do. I don't. Wish I did.
Driver's License numbers. I know mine! Do you know yours? It's handy to know! But, why?
I was going to say something else, but I've forgotten what it was.
It's really no wonder. Life is getting more and more complicated. It is that, isn't it? Or is it that my mind is going? There is just so much to do, and so much to remember to do!
Hair appointments and massages: Ha! These appointments are luxury extras for people who have extra head space for them. It's not just the extra money I'm missing.
I've had a gift certificate for a massage that I've owned for 6 years now, and still haven't used. Why? Because every time I have free time, I forget about it! Not only that, but should I remember to make that, or any other appointment, I am known to forget to write it down on my new, fancy techno I-calender!
I used to have this big desk sized Calendar that I'd fill in by pen or pencil. I could see it! That seemed so easy. Plus, it had jotted down notes on it that stayed there and never got deleted.
But, now, I have to squint my old eyes and try to type it in a phone sized application. It's nice. Don't get me wrong. It beeps me when I forget, but it sure as heck doesn't do much good if I forget to enter it, in the first place!
How bout this one? I wrote a grocery list down on the note section of my iphone. I accidentally deleted it, while holding it. It was forever gone! I did have chocolate chip cookies on that list. Didn't I?
Taxes. Oh, taxes. I have to set aside a whole week (or more?) to try to go through receipts and deduct this and that, and make it easier for my accountant. Saving money by doing more is great if you have the time! I so wish I could just afford to hand my accountant my big bag of receipts and say, "DO IT, please!"
Life is just too busy!
I keep thinking if I get rid of my car, I could save time. I wouldn't have to do oil changes, or remember to buy insurance and keep it updated, or get it fixed when I break down. In fact, I probably would drop a whole lot of things that make me own a car in the first place!
I could take a bus to the beach, when I wanted to go. I could read, (a totally lost art!) while sitting on the bus. That is, if it weren't for my dog. They don't allow dogs on the bus, darnit.
I don't know. Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed by everything a person has to do, just to live life. It's no wonder there are homeless people. Life is just hard!
And so, no, kids. Life is not like the Disney land life that I had you grow up with. I'm so sorry!
I read this article where it talked about the era when I raised kids. You know, the modern method of telling your kids how great they were, all the time! That was the way to go. Everyone participating in a sport got an award, rather than only the best of the best, during soccer games and such.
That just didn't work out, because in the end, they graduate college, or leave high school and find out that not everyone in the world saw them as the best of the best. That's a crushing disappointment to have dropped on your shoulders, after your parents assured you that you were something very special! That's one low blow!
I went fishing yesterday. I took my time and I sat on the shore, watching my Heddon wobbler wobbling in the current. That is ALL that was going on! I was hidden in the bushes, fishing along the edge of the high and rolling Kilchis river.
I had nothing. NOTHING on my mind.
It was a luxury that no money can buy.
That is what I wished I had raised my kids to know. There is nothing more valuable than a free and open mind. No numbers, no problems, no calendar dates to remember.
I ran my fingers down the smooth line, and felt the vibration of the lure, working in the water. All my sense were keen and clean and uncluttered.
Now that, my friends... That was a Disney moment.
Especially when out of the blue, my rod tip took a plunge...
WHOO HOOOOO!

February 26, 2014

Gooooood morning, fishers!
I'm having more fun, fishing this week!
It's either jigs or wobblers in a beautiful color in the river! It's perfect steelhead water!
I haven't fished with a drift rig in ages, so it's the go-to, for today!
You know, I was worried that I had lost the mojo, the passion, the love for fishing. Nope! I'm right at it, again! I just think sometimes you need to take a break. Now that I have, oh, boy! Give me that water! Hand me a rod! I'm after it!
Even Willie is getting into it!
He used to insist I took the flashlight out to the river, but he's getting that excitement that Kilchis always had, when I reach up for a rod.
I love that! I missed that! What good is a darn flashlight, when Mom can hook something alive with a rod, and I can wiggle and jump and get all tangled up in the line? Right, Mom?
It's fun, and Willie and Revvie have so much fun, exploring. The river is now clean of dead chinook and chum carcasses, so I don't have any worries over either salmon poisoning or stinky dog syndrome.
What is it about that rotten stuff, that makes dogs want to go shoulder down into it, and roll!? Yuck!
Anyhow, off to fish!
Just heard that I may have to go back to Oregon City tomorrow. Tomorrow! Oh, no! So, I have to get out there and get some more fishing done!
Quick! Let's go, puppies!February 27, 2014

And... my Birth"day" continues! Tomorrow, it's breakfast with my sisters and my sis in law for pancakes! Yay! I love my Birthmonth!
I couldn't believe Facebook! Oh, my, gosh! I had over 70 Birthday wishes! That's such a great feeling! I love my friends!
Hey, what's April for? I think we should skip that month. What good is it? It simply prolongs the stretch until Spring really happens. I mean, March is fun. It's "Hey! Spring is on the way!" And then April comes along just to test our endurance or something? What fun happens in April? Easter is awesome, but we could move that. Biblically, it didn't really happen in April, did it? I don't know. But, still.
April just seems like one long test to me. Can I make it until Spring?
I was looking at our bird book and there are lots of birds that show up in April. I guess that is what April is for. I do look forward to that!
So, the Kwikfish are mostly gone, except for a few that I have saved for special peeps of honor. I'm so glad that I kept a few, as I am glad to help those that missed out.
Last night I was going through my kwikfish collection and I was surprised to find that I have zip, zero 2011 models! Oh, my!
What happens is this.
Dear, dear, my favorite ifish Mom,
I don't know how, but I missed out on this year's kwikfish. My dog ate my computer, and I couldn't get online.
Do you remember that time I stood up for you on the web, when everyone was mad at you for banning xxxx? When I came to your rescue, when no one else was on your side?
Well, I'd sure like to have a Kwikfish.
Got any extras?
Love,
(real name and moniker: "Imyourfriend")

How could I NOT send them my last, one and only of that year's kwikfish?
I save probably six for myself. One to use, and several to do contests with, or for people like the above.
So, I get down to my one and get a letter like that, and well? I have none!
I just don't do well with the word "no".
But, I'm learning! I'm getting better!
I have an unopened six pack of lures JUST FOR ME this year. I'm not even going to open it until all signs of "I love you" e mails and private messages of kwikfish desperation have passed.
Then, I will open them and fawn over them and know they are mine all mine!
Sadly, that doesn't happen, either, because years pass, and someone, one of my "bester" friends will write to me, saying they are missing one out of the collection. One by one, they disappear until I don't have them!
I have ONE 2005. I'm holding on to that one! Any that I have just one of, I'm not NOT NOT giving away!
I wonder what the most wanted kwikfish are? What year? Probably the one I have none of!
Anyhow, I'm off to Oregon City this morning.
Have a great rainy day, and think SNOW! Whoo hoo! I'm taking a sled from the shed here, just in case!

February 27, 2014

And... my Birth"day" continues! Tomorrow, it's breakfast with my sisters and my sis in law for pancakes! Yay! I love my Birthmonth!
I couldn't believe Facebook! Oh, my, gosh! I had over 70 Birthday wishes! That's such a great feeling! I love my friends!
Hey, what's April for? I think we should skip that month. What good is it? It simply prolongs the stretch until Spring really happens. I mean, March is fun. It's "Hey! Spring is on the way!" And then April comes along just to test our endurance or something? What fun happens in April? Easter is awesome, but we could move that. Biblically, it didn't really happen in April, did it? I don't know. But, still.
April just seems like one long test to me. Can we make it until Spring? Maybe April is why we love Spring so much! We are finally there! We made it! It's a marathon till Spring!
I was looking at our bird book and there are lots of birds that show up in April. I guess that is what April is for. I do look forward to that!
So, the Kwikfish are mostly gone, except for a few that I have saved for special peeps of honor. I'm so glad that I kept a few, as I am glad to help those that missed out.
Last night I was going through my kwikfish collection and I was surprised to find that I have zip, zero 2011 models! Oh, my!
What happens is this.
Dear, dear, my favorite ifish Mom,
I don't know how, but I missed out on this year's kwikfish. My dog ate my computer, and I couldn't get online.
Do you remember that time I stood up for you on the web, when everyone was mad at you for banning xxxx? When I came to your rescue, when no one else was on your side?
Well, I'd sure like to have a Kwikfish.
Got any extras?
Love,
(real name and moniker: "Imyourfriend")

How could I NOT send them my last, one and only of that year's kwikfish?
I save probably six for myself. One to use, and several to do contests with, or for people like the above.
So, I get down to my one and get a letter like that, and well? I have none!
I just don't do well with the word "no".
But, I'm learning! I'm getting better!
I have an unopened six pack of lures JUST FOR ME this year. I'm not even going to open it until all signs of "I love you" e mails and private messages of kwikfish desperation have passed.
Then, I will open them and fawn over them and know they are mine all mine!
Sadly, that doesn't happen, either, because years pass, and someone, one of my "bester" friends will write to me, saying they are missing one out of the collection. One by one, they disappear until I don't have them!
I have ONE 2005. I'm holding on to that one! Any that I have just one of, I'm not NOT NOT giving away!
I wonder what the most wanted kwikfish are? What year? Probably the one I have none of!
Anyhow, I'm off to Oregon City this morning.
Have a great rainy day, and think SNOW! Whoo hoo! I'm taking a sled from the shed here, just in case!

 

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