Fishing The Coast, Oregon and Washington
April 2010

Our babies! Now they are 8 and 9 years old!

April 2nd

I guess it was fun to miss April Fools all together, yesterday. Made people be on their toes to see what I'd done to the site. I did nothing. Tee hee! Jokes on you!
I was in Portland, after my Dad's 85th Birthday party. We surprised him! My sisters and sister in law did a wonderful job!
I was in charge of picking up two Costco cakes and 3 bags of ice. (What would they do without me? LOL)
Teri made a huge batch of Tyler's Ultimate spaghetti. (Tyler Florence on TV) and Linda made a beautiful huge salad (Twos of 'em!) and cheese bread and Patty, Gary's wife, decorated the hall.
We had a great time! I would post pictures, but I bought my Dad a digital frame, took pictures of the party and handed him the SD card and the frame for him to enjoy the party for years to come!
A family friend of ours, Jim Mickelson, was able to secure the Canby Legion Hall for Dad's party.
It was a great success!
Yesterday I woke up at David's (my brothers) and drove home before the "storm" that was forecast. What storm?
Last night, I fell asleep with flashlight in hand, waiting for the big event. Woke up at 7 and n n n nothing! However, the barometer is hovering around 29.39 right now, and still headed down!
I snagged a copy of what I see, on my desktop weather station.. Look at that barometer!
The wind warnings are still out. Guess the storm is just late? I don't know! But, you can watch the Tillamook town winds, here. That's the Tillamook PUD weather station that is so popular.
Our Kilchis river weather station is here.
It's great, too, but due to the location of our home, deep in a canyon, we get swirly winds that aren't as straight on. Plus, it's not live like Tillamook PUD's is. I love watching the wind go up and down. I can do that from the home station, but I haven't made it go online live like that. Too much bandwidth. I may shorten the upload interval, for today's storm. However-- we usually lose power, anyhow.
Well, off to catch up on my ifish work. Hope you have a lovely day. I may go out and try to beat the storm with a couple casts for the illusive wild steelhead.
The river isn't brown and I do have shrimp!
Hey! Ever heard of "Rivers of Recovery?" I just received this e mail:
Subject: Your column
A fellow fly fisherman just turned me on to your site: I really liked it (sorry about the ticket... I just get speeding tickets...but I earn them). I teach fly fishing and tying to our disabled Vets each summer (June-October) and would like to introduce them to this site as well. I volunteer with Rivers of Recovery and am their NW Regional Coordinator. I am in the throws of starting a 40 day paddle the length of the Columbia River (BC to the Pacific) in my wood canoe but would love to link up with you sometime afterwards and chat. Again, great site and happy to have had the opportunity to read. Kenn

If it interests you and would like to help support them, please do!

April 4th

Peter 1:3-9
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His great mercy has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to obtain an inheritance which is imperishable and undefiled and will not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, who are protected by the power of God through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.

I am without words after reading something like that! How awesome!
I do miss the fun of the kids being little. I miss dying eggs. Thing is, this time of year I have so many eggs, but the chickens already colored them! We have some Aracanas who like to lay blue and green mostly!
Believe it or not- this is the very first year that I haven't gotten the kids Easter baskets. Something is missing, here! But, I just had to stop some day... didn't I? They are 21 and 22! Time to stop! I keep thinking of this song, though. I love this song!
I won't grow up,
I don't want to go to school.
Just to learn to be a parrot,
And recite a silly rule.
If growing up means
It would be beneath my dignity to climb a tree,
I'll never grow up, never grow up, never grow up
Not me!
I won't grow up,
I don't want to wear a tie.
And a serious expression
In the middle of July.
And if it means I must prepare
To shoulder burdens with a worried air, I'll never grow up, never grow up, never grow up
Not me!
So there!

Things did change a bit in the last few. Instead of Easter eggs, we had Starbucks gift certificates, and socks, and things like that.
But-- it's time, probably to put your hearts into what Easter is really about! Isn't it? I don't know! I miss the fun of decorating for Easter, and having a surprise basket full of goodies! Can't I do both? After all, Jesus loves a youthful heart!
I bought a beautiful prime rib and I'm going to cook it like Scott Amerman taught me to do. You put the oven on really high and then turn it off and leave it in the oven for a certain amount of time, per pound. It turns out so yummy that way! I think I posted it on the recipe forum on ifish, if you are interested. If you can't find it and you are interested, use the contact form to ask, and I'll get the recipe to you.
Happy Hop Hop to all of you.
I haven't spent Easter at home in ages. I think I'll catch an Easter fish!
And then... perhaps, just maybe... I'll buy a dozen shiny bright white eggs and dye them pretty colors!
Is it too late to fill Easter baskets? :)

April 6th

He has risen and I have fallen.
I have the flu.
Get this: I was too tired to cook two nights ago, so I ordered chinese food for the fam.
I couldn't eat a bite of it, though. I was sick to my stomach. Don't get me wrong, though. It was worth the total cost for me to not have to cook, even though I would have loved to have joined them. I sipped a bit of the warm egg flower soup and lounged in bed.
My kids were so excited by the opportunity to have take out that they served me in bed!
Then came Easter! I had saved up to buy a Prime Rib. I have that wonderful recipe where you cook it at 500 degrees, 5 minutes per pound and then let it sit in the oven till it's done to perfection!
I made fresh french bread. I made twice baked potatoes. I made fruit salad. By dinner time, I was so exhausted and sick that I sat at the table with everyone, said Grace, and proceeded to nibble at a bit of the fruit salad before I left the table early and went to bed. Wah. My "share" of the prime rib still sits in a tupperware container on the second shelf, labeled "Mom". If that won't scare the boys away, I don't know what will!
Bill and I used to hide things in the freezer that were tasty by labeling them "liver and onions" or "cat food" or something that would repel their enormous appetites. We finally figured out that "Mom" does a better job! Mom freaks when her food is gone. Look out! But, I think this time, they'd best just go ahead and eat it. A big slab of beef would do me no good at this point! I am sick!
I had an invitation to fish with Bill Monroe today. I put off my reply for days on end, trying not to say no. Trying to feel better, but knowing in my heart that I was failing. I finally had to respond, though. "No." The answer was no, and frankly, I'm ever so glad that I did. I really am sick! Can't imagine being on a rocking boat and I bet they are glad I'm not, too!
Sometimes I'm so tired that I think I'm sick and I end up not. I wake up the next day feeling great! I mean, I don't end up having the flu or a virus. I'm just sick and tired, rather than infected. I get so exhausted that it just feels like sick. But-- this time I'm sick! Certifiably so. Yucko. Fever, headache, my nerves in my legs are on fire just like after the stents were put in. I wish I knew why! More than that, though, I wish it would go away! There are fish to catch and things to do!
Kilchis keeps staring at me like when I had heart surgery and couldn't move. He wants to play and so do I!
I'm able, this morning, to sit here and get some things caught up, at least. I have hot and cold shivers, though. Bathrobe on. Bathrobe off. LOL.
I am so lucky, though. All in all- I really didn't think I'd make it to 50 and I have. I am so grateful! You know, I've been through so much! I have lost my eyesight and regained it! I have lost my health and regained it!
I was looking at my list of months writing the other day and stared in wonder. I'm alive! I'm thankful! I bolded the month that I nearly died and I have left it that way to show me how far I've come.
So, today I'm going to rest. I'm going to drink tons of water and watch a marathon of television shows that I've recorded. I'm going to just allow myself a day of sick and not worry about things to do. Kilchis? I'm sorry, pup, but we have to stay in. Everyone should do that, now and then-- even if you aren't sick!

April 9th

Oh, the index... sometimes I think I should name my writings here "The Index".
When making a web site, the home page is always titled "index.html". Why? I never stopped to question. It just was. It just is. It is what I learned when I took that first step into learning html so long ago. I learned html from an online source. I wonder if I can still find it. Let me try!
It was at Case, but it appears to be gone. It was a quiz type thing that walked you through all of the elements of bare bones HTML. Hyper Text Markup language. I was so proud to know what that meant! And an URL? Oh! That's a uniform resource locater! Of course! It works for me!
I then took a college course in coding. They used a software called "Hot Dog" I think! Oh, that was a long time ago!
I soon ventured into using Dreamweaver and that is where I still sit, today!
I use Dreamweaver, but an older version. I don't know XHTML and I don't know how to do style sheets! My page at ifish is homey and non technical! I can still code by hand if I think hard enough!
Some days, I think I should have my web site professionally redone. I don't have the skills to do it myself, but it would be so nice to be able to do a wordpress, or something like that and insert it here. The way I do it now is that I open up the entire Web site folder, find the index, copy the old writings into a new page called April10.html (or insert the month here) and then write in the middle column on the index. Makes it hard for me to travel and write. I have to have all my files with me.
Lately, I am traveling a bunch, so it is hard!
If I had it redone the new way, I could just login to a format, where I could update my column anywhere! I'd love that!
Giggle... Buzz just called and was telling me he had too much talent in the boat to catch fish! We'll see about that! He has Bob Toman, Bill Monroe and his daughter in law, Kaitlin! How much fun would that be? Made me smile just to think of it! I want to be in that boat, NOW!
Instead, I'm going to visit my Dad, go to a meeting, and then go to the Steelheaders Banquet, tomorrow night. I hope you'll join us, there!
Anyhow... my life is plenty of fun, right where I am. Before I leave, I'm going to go float a jig and find a couple dandy steelhead! I love this time of year where my confidence is high and the fish cooperate with even me!
Whether I fish in my pajamas or my business suit, I seem to catch them, lately! So, look out! Here I come!

April 12th

I smell springers! I do! In the air!
I love it when I go for a walk this time of year- the sunshine comes out and melts all the rain off each single blade of grass and the moisture is all around me! It smells like springers!
I hear the call of an eagle outside, right now. That's "springers" to me, too! I can't tell you how many times out on the bay I've heard the call of an eagle and looked towards the mountains. Sure enough, there they are! Eagles soaring around the tree tops.
Sure, you guys in the Portland area are battling the boat zoo on the Columbia, searching out springers. Sure, you may catch more than I, but I still have the chance, here! And I do catch them here! Just not in mass, like you may!
At the banquet on Saturday night, I heard that 900 boats were counted in one small stretch of the Columbia! Shee Whiz! That's a bunch of you! No wonder the board has been quiet! You are all fishing!
Bill Monroe Junior has been putting on a clinic with his wife, Kaitlin! So many of you are catching fish!
Oh! I can't believe my disappointment in missing Bill being awarded member of the year at the Steelheader's banquet! Shee whiz, again! I'm batting zero! I also missed Bill Monroe being awarded into the "Hall of Fame!" Congrats to both of you! To all that were awarded important awards!
That morning, I had taken my Dad out and I over exerted. I hurt from my hair to my toes and had to leave early. It bums me out. Evening gigs are increasingly hard for me. And look what I missed! Argh! Bill himself nearly missed it, due to having to drive me home.
I really would have loved to have been there to see those awards accepted. Darnit.
Congratulations to everyone, though! I'm so proud of you all!
Now... back to smelling springers in the air-- when we going, Bill? I can't wait to get the big boat out and start in! Is it too early? Probably! But, who cares? I can dream, can't I?

April 15th

Guess how much Grandpa's Tackle box weighs!

Also, please be aware of this new drive to "Take a Soldier Fishing!" There are tons of opportunities! This is a new one, that I just heard about, today.
Also, see Rivers of Recovery and Nalu's thread on the Salty Dogs! See! You have no excuse not to help this awesome movement! We may not be able to join forces with the Army/Navy/Air Force/Marines, but we can join forces on our rivers!
Read Bill Monroe's article on it, too!

Giggle! Remember this? It's so violent! I can't believe my Grandma used to tell me that at bedtime!
Click here for morning coffee on the river!
If anyone knows the story, the fairytales, long ago told which included the characters placing flour on the ground to catch their prints, let me know!
Oh, and here is me trying to land and film a steelie!
How bout this one? Caught me a tree!

April 21st

So, I was off to see my Dad, but then a member decided to ruff up the board a bit, so I've been home, trying to fix the damage done. :(
Frustrating. Every time I try to go visit my Dad, it seems something holds me back. Or fishing, or whatever... I don't know, it just seems like ifish takes a bunch of time, but always at inopportune times!
Yesterday it was me, causing problems. I kind of had the day off, but because I didn't go anywhere, I tried to "help" the moderators. But, I seemed to goof up at every turn. Some days are just like that.
Anyhow, I'm caught up, so I'm going to go shower, and then go see my Dad.
Poor Kilchy sees my suitcase and gets all sad about it. He knows things that dogs shouldn't know! He actually understands words and actions that some people don't! He's truly my soul brother!
I can't wait to fish for Springers and I'm going to, soon! Bill went with Dudley yesterday. I couldn't for many reasons, but one was that my INR was too high. I am praying right now that it's not too high, today. Even though it was high yesterday, I accidentally took my coumadin, anyhow. Yikes! That means that should I get in a car accident, that I could bleed a bunch. Like... too much! (How can I say that without being gross? LOL) But, it's worth it! You know, having an artificial valve, we have to be really careful, so coumadin it is!
I'm rambling... I gotta get outa here and go see my Dad. That will make me smile.

April 17th

Bill pulled this out of his Grandpa's fishing stuff!
Can you even imagine risking your rod tip? Yikes!

On our discussion board, here.

My son is all upset over not getting to go to his annual concert this year at Coachella. It's being live broadcast, starting in the late afternoon, here. Those who love good rock will enjoy this. I would have loved to have gone last year, due to Paul McCartney... but the heat is just too much for this girl!
But, when Tammy and I dropped them off, the teenager in me got all excited. Will I ever grow up? It just looked SO fun!
The guys bought a cheapo tent and some water color paints and had everyone join in, painting it. It was SO cool! Still is!
Thing is, I think he should be thankful that he EVER got to go. I think he is... but you know how kids are.
But, I have been enlightened, recently. I had an epiphany. It was regarding the "rush" you get when you buy something, or even look forward to something. You know, the feeling you get when you get to shop? (At least for me, that is exciting!)
OK. I find that when I am feeling down, I like to go, shopping online. I don't even have to "buy" anything, but it helps me feel better to find things that I like. I fall into a dream world of hitting the "Buy now" button. It's fun for me to need something and to go shopping for it. I get a rush and it usually chases away the blues.
But you know what? That's a "feeling". I am in charge of my feelings, right? So, I can own that feeling any time I want!
Bill was teasing the other day when he said that perhaps when he gets his new truck, he'll be "happier".
I remember once, shopping with Andrew at Costco. I turned to him and said, "Andrew... I'm going to find something in this store that will make me happy for the rest of my life!" I was kidding, of course, but part of the funny in that, is that there is a slice of truth in there, somewhere!
We are a "buy happy" Nation.
But-- you don't have to buy! We already own the right to the rush! That happiness can be turned on anytime we want!
I tried to explain this to Bill, and he didn't get it. I couldn't explain it very well, I guess. I said, "Just pretend you have your truck already!" He laughed. I still wonder if he thinks I'm crazy. (Uh huh)
I don't know, but to me, it helps that I figured that out. Now I can chase my blues away any old time I want to! I'm in control!
Sometimes I wake up in the morning and wonder why I'm so happy. It's because the night before, I pretended I was going to Hawaii next week! LOL! Whatarush!
Thing is, though, people with lots of money lose that happiness. I was most joyful at a time when I had NO money. I remember the thrill of having enough money to buy COMET once, to clean my sink. But folks who have enough to buy anything they want, lose that happiness and soon seem to fill the rehab clinics, and are on anti depressants.
Moral of the story is, don't get into that trap. Money and things don't "buy" happiness. We all know that, but have you ever really thought it through? I hadn't!

It's Springtime. the ringy-dingy-ding time...

Birds sing! Hey ding!
And oh, do they! I'd forgotten, as I do most seasons, how much I love Spring! But, springtime is so great! I missed my grosbeak! I missed my buzzy hummies! But-- this year is a bit different! It's not quite so hectic and it makes me worry that all of those studies I read about might be true. Are the backyard birds diminishing? Oh, no! I would hate to believe it. I'd said "Oh, posh!" to that in the past, but man alive... I used to have so many hummies this time of year, but this year they are sparse!
I was so worried about my swallows, too! I finally had Bill take down their favorite nest and clean it. Sure enough, two days later they swarmed us! I think they liked it! Now, they are busy building a nest and each morning I get to watch them fighting over who gets to have their babies there, this year.
I won a "bird feeder" package at the Steelheader's banquet. How perfect for me! In it, was a little thistle feeder that has suction cups to stick on my window. I placed it in my office window. It's so funny! It's meant for finches, silly! Not you big grosbeaks! They keep attempting to use it, but they won't fit! So funny! Grosbeaks are clowns!
I ordered a cold frame from a retailer on the internet and spent the morning putting it together. It's so awesome! It's here, if you want to take a look. Thing is, though, it's not high enough for my tomato plants. So... I have this great idea! I'm going to dig a hole in the garden to fit the width and length of it, and then it can house plants that grow taller. Yay! I'm a genius! I was going to have it on my deck, but this just works better. It will be for that, and for growing tiny plants to later be transplanted into the big garden.
Bill and I had a minor tiff over the fact that he snuck Round Up into my garden. Not sure if I even want to "go there" in my column, but I'm so ticked! Why in the world would we grow vegetables if the produce will be exactly what you can buy? I wanted my veggies clean! Dangit. So, I spent days researching articles where they are finding Roundup to be a lot more dangerous than they thought. Bill actually took the articles seriously! Even though they were just from the internet! He is starting to believe me! Yay! But, as for our garden, it's yellow and already "poisoned". He'd laugh at me for saying that, but I do feel that way! So, for me, this year, and maybe years to come, it's going to be raised beds and not in our garden. Makes me sad, but if I'm going to do the work to grow produce, then it's going to be "clean" or as clean as I'm able!
No, I don't like to weed, either, but the whole reason I do, is to eat produce that I know isn't poisoned!
Alright, enough of that. I sure hope Bill doesn't read this! I'm tired of going back and forth about it! It is what it is.
Gardening on the coast is pretty iffy, anyhow. We don't have a good growing season, but there are things that turn out pretty good!
I can't wait to knock on my kids window and say "Berry fairy!" and hand them juicy berries from the garden!
It's springtime! The ringy ringy ring time!
Sweet lovers.... argue about Roundup!
Oh! Lookee there! The UPS man is here! Happiness, delivered! (I'm learning, but not quite there, yet!)

April 23rd
Oh, there's sunshine in my soul today!
(and it's a darn good thing because I can't find it in the weather!!)

I maintain my happiness by looking forward to things. Even the littlest of things. Right now I can't wait till the coffee is done, and by just thinking about it, it gives me satisfaction, a happy feeling!
I watch for my freesia to bloom every day. I watch for my orchids to grow a new leaf or a new mitten like growth that means it will bloom, again!
I can't wait to fish for Springers with Bill Monroe, next week! I can't wait for Springers on the coast!
There is always good on the horizon.
I can't wait to get the ladder out and clean my windows, upstairs. Then, I'll be able to see the river better, and when the sunshine comes out and shines on them, I won't be grossed out!
You can choose to look for good things, or choose not to notice. Happiness is up to us, really. It's all in our outlook. I 'look out' for happiness! I'm on constant watch. It's a valuable thing, that happy feeling.
I can always tell when I'm desperate for happiness when I stoop to ordering something off of ebay. LOL. That's when I can tell that I need to adjust my vision. I'm so blinded by frustration or whatever, that I've lost sight of the small but very good things that naturally come my way.
I know for a fact that if I'd only take away what is blinding me, there are plenty of good things right around me! I don't need to buy things! For heaven's sake! But, I'm only human and I am female! I love to shop!
I got a toe ring in the mail, yesterday and although it is very pretty, I still got a bigger dose of the happies out of a new leaf on my orchid. It happened while I was gone! Oh! A dose of endorphins ran through me like no ebay could ever create!

I was just out on a walk, but it was too cold! "I can't wait for Spring" I heard myself thinking... and just then, I was warmed by how nice it is to look forward to things and how happy those thoughts make me. How they comfort me.
As soon as I pictured the sunshine, me in flip flops wading in the river, a wash of sunshine came over me. And I don't mean that the clouds parted and the chill left my bones. It didn't. But, there was sunshine in my soul!
The longer we wait, sometimes, the better! How long have we been longing for sunshine? For Spring? Seems forever!
How long did we wait for Springer Season? Forever! But, you know the weirdest thing? The Springers came and in unbelievable numbers this year!
Yet, I can't remember a time that we have had so much fighting on the board, regarding them! Instead of being thankful for them, instead of realizing our tremendous good fortune, people are wanting them all to themselves! It's unreal! There are years when folks look forward to this season and end with only one and they are thankful! But, this year, nearly everyone is getting one, and new people are becoming interested and folks that have plenty, want more and more, and want these new people the heck out of here!
Totally bizarre thinking, but it happens! When we want something so badly, and get a lot of it... Take for example a lottery winner... the happiness escapes them!
I have been trying for years to grow a good batch of freesias. I'm so grateful when I get a bloom! I'm so excited about it! My freesia have been eaten by predators and get rotten in the ground. Not sure why I have so little luck, but usually I do. They just aren't good at the coast, or something. But, this year, I threw all of my freesia bulbs in a bucket of pete moss for holding until I could plant them. Guess what? I went back to plant them and they were all sprouted and healthy and had huge root systems! I was so excited! I won the freesia lottery! (And I learned something, too!! Grow your bulbs in pete moss!)
I planted them, and each day I'm amazed to see them doing so well. I planted them in half pete moss and half potting soil. They are happy so far and so far, so am I! But-- it scares me! Since I have such a bounty, will my joy leave me? Will I become so accustomed to them so healthy, will I become selfish, or have whatever happened on the fishing board, happen to me? Am I going to get nasty and say awful things to others? LOL... If someone comes over and discovers them, will I hide them and/or tell them to get the heck out of my freesia garden and to go learn to grow them all by themselves? That it takes years to learn, so they have no right? Will I delete the info above about how to grow them in pete moss, scared that someone else will get more blooms than I?
I don't think so... but whatever greed that takes over people's being, I don't want to catch it! And it does seem catching!
Frankly, I've felt that fishing greed before, and it's an evil mistress. Once, I found a secret hot spot and I had it all to myself. It was on the Hammond jetty. They had made a mistake in the regs, and although I can't quite remember quite what it was, it read that you could keep 5 silvers.
I had a bunch of frozen bait, but I ran out. I went to get some bait at the local tackle store.
Next day I got up to go get my fish and the entire jetty was lined with fishers! Oh, me oh my!
Everyone from my pastor to my banker was out there! LOL. But, you know what? I just said what the heck, found a rock to sit on, and joined in. I had MORE fun for the rest of that season than I had ever had alone. (In fact, I found a new hot spot, too!) I met lifelong friends, that week!
I really feel that each one of us has the right to our rivers, our streams, our fish.
The more people that enjoy the bounty of fish we have this year, the more people that will be passionate enough to reach out and help us to maintain them.
I find it interesting that often those very people who feel that the fish are all theirs, are the ones who complain that no one goes to meetings.
I don't know. I guess there is no real answer to the "Do you post everything on the internet?" I mean, it's just like everything else. It just keeps getting bigger as the world grows.
That's why I'm making this very simple request to all of you out there. Look towards little things for your happiness and you will always be satisfied. Satisfied and happy.
I think the reason I love to fish is because I am constantly looking forward to that bite. I sit there all day and wait and wait and it makes me happy just dreaming about when it will happen! I can't wait!
I have always maintained that the quest is best. I used to laugh about that when I was younger and on the lookout for cute guys. I loved the quest. I wasn't so hot at maintaining relationships, and I didn't really want to. I just liked to hunt for dates! It was far better, in my mind, than the steady date thing.
Right now, I'm on the quest for that fresh cup of coffee, but in the long range hunt, I'm on the quest for happiness. Long term, even. (Man, have I ever changed!)
A steady even keel. I know that we can't be happy all the time. Without sadness, without all of our emotions, we wouldn't know the difference, or appreciate what happiness feels like!
I want to feel them all! I do! But, on the way, I keep myself balanced, maintaining a constant search, a constant quest, a constant "I can't wait" so that even when I'm sad, I can still look touch base with happiness as I look forward.
In between fishing trips, life can be extremely difficult. So, maintain that long and arduous battle with a good dose of happiness by always remembering all of the small things that make you happy. Look forward to those, especially when life is tough. It makes the going alot easier for me!

Oh, there's sunshine in my soul today,
More beautiful and bright
Than you'll find in any earthly sky,

Oh, there's springtime in my soul today,
For when my Lord is near,
The dove of peace sings in my heart,

While the peaceful, happy moments roll;
When the dove of peace sings in my heart,
There is springtime in my soul.

Oh, there's gladness in my soul today
And hope, and praise, and love,
For blessings which He gives to me,
For joys laid up above.

Oh, there's sunshine in my soul today!


April 24th

I don't like to sound like a holy roller.
I have to say though, that after being gently reminded, that there is but one very awesome thing that I "can't wait for" that gives me the most joy. It's what sustains me, always.
That would be my place reserved in Heaven.
I've been close enough to death, (in fact, I was right at the gate!) to know that I have no fear where death is concerned.
Not that I'm in any hurry. I just have no fear and I have no sadness regarding "death".
At least, the death of me. It's the people who are left on earth who have to feel sadness. I mean, I'm so afraid for when my loved ones go, because I'll miss them so much!
Heaven doesn't have that sadness!
I know as an unquestionable fact that Heaven is a place where there is no sadness and that is where I am going when I leave, here.
Can you imagine? How awesome is that!
People worry about things like missing their loved ones or not getting to see their Grandchildren, or ask questions like, "Will my pet be there?" "Are there fish there to fish for?"
But-- these are unanswerable questions, and things I am not concerned with because there is no sadness in Heaven! So, fear not! Be at peace! I have faith that there is a GOOD answer for these things. Imagine a place where everything is good!
Isn't that awesome? Makes me giddy!
How petty it sounds that I need a dang toe ring(!!) to satisfy my need for happiness when there is a place that I will one day go, that will take away any need for such silliness! Whoo hoooo!
But my Father understands me and my silliness.
This faith is something that 'just is' for me, and I have such deep faith in Him, that it goes without saying and thus, went without writing!
I should realize, however, that there are people that don't think this way, so I thought I should mention that yes... the biggest, most awesome thing in the whole wide world, that keeps me ticking, that keeps me positive, that keeps me glowing, is the fact that I am saved from worry and stress through the love and promises of our Heavenly Father.
OK. Now I sound like a holy roller!
I do talk about God once and a while, like above, but I prefer to show my love for God by smiling, by being happy, by singing, by being silly, by being kind and loving, by being at peace.
I fail, often, but I try!
Shame on me for sharing my life frustrations with my friends and my fellow mods when I do. I do that! Yes, I do. I will work on that!
But- do me a favor. Look, today, for people that are happy. You'll know they are Christians by their love! Really! That's more than just a song!
The other day I was at the bank and I walked up to this lady that I just love. She's always kind, always helpful, always has a smile. I blurted out, like an idiot, "You are a Christian, aren't you?!"
I knew it! I knew it! And of course, she was!
Dang, I was glad she said yes! How embarrassing if she would have whacked me up side the head, or something, but she was, and she was gracious as always, in saying so.
I hope that I show others that I am a Christian by my love.
And that is my prayer, today. I'll work on it. :)

April 26th

I'm off to go fishing! Yes, me! Jennie! Fishing! Remember when I used to fish all the time? I'm trying to reinvent that, somehow!
See what I had for dinner?

April 29th

The reason I haven't written is because I'm having a snit about the rainy weather.

April 30th

But... there is good in rainy weather!
I just went outside to fill my bird feeders and the sun came out! As I filled them, I sang, "The sun will come out, tomorrow..." You know that song?
The swallows dive bombed me as I intruded into their territory. The bird feeders are near their favorite home, nailed to the wall. Dang, they come close when they dive bomb me! Yikes! It's kind of fun! The kind of thing that makes me nervously giggle.
I have been blessed with the discovery of thistle bags! At the NW Steelheaders banquet, I bid on a bird basket full of bird goodies. Inside, I found this netting thing. I thought it was just packing, but no! It's a thistle bag! I have two of them!
It's just white netting made of cotton. I found some on the internet, but they are green. Just look at your local bird shop, or ask for a thistle bag! My goldfinch are so happy! They crowd on this little bag like mad! Upside down, downside up! I have had up to 15 goldfinch on one bag! It's so fun! I'd like to hold it and feel the flurry of feathers in my hands!
We have goldfinch, hummingbirds and grosbeak, mainly. A few purple finch, a few red winged blackbirds and very few leftover winter junco and chickadee. They are all delightful!
You know, I am sick of the rain. I am! But, as it poured the other day, I went for a walk. I gave in. The rain was falling on the thick canopy of green and it sounded like jungle rain! It was rather wonderful, really!
I just miss the warm and muggy feeling of rain in the spring. It's cold out! When will it warm up?
My orchids are both shooting out spikes or flowering spikes. Not sure yet which, but I'm excited about it!
My freesia are doing really well! I have more than ever!
I planted some seeds but they aren't even sprouting. I lean over to look and listen and all I see is dirt. I can hear their tiny voices saying, "Brrr, Mom! Not yet!" They are blanketed in the soil, waiting for "tomorrow". You know, when the sun comes out.
I have one single asparagus shooting out of the ground! Just one! Bill and I will split it for dinner! One bite for Bill. One for me. Proud parents, we are!
I was so afraid that my rhubarb gave up the ghost this year, but I do have two shiny, rubbery leaves coming out.
My berries have blooms. Strawberries, blueberries, and raspberries. Yay! I can't wait!
Just about all the signs are here. All but the sun and the warmth... and the steelhead redds! None! I keep watching for them, thinking my vision must be poor, but Bill can't see them either! Is it too early? I don't think so? I'll look at my journal from past years, but I think, perhaps they have found a different place further upstream. There was good escapement this year, so they are probably way up there. I miss that! I take my chair out each day, in hopes that I'll find a redd to watch while the dogs play. I change my plain lenses for my sunglasses. It doesn't matter. They just aren't there!
Spring is here!
Why doesn't my heart go dancing?
Spring is here!
Why aren't the redds entrancing?

I go out, anyhow, and that's what we are off to do, now.
Think sunshine! Please! If we see it in our minds hard enough, perhaps our hearts will go dancing!!