Over the edge...

Hogmaster · 08-21-2003, 06:30 AM

Over the edge

It finally happened. I stepped off the edge
And I felt strong. It felt so good
Some saw me going, so many knew why
Others are clueless, certain its wrong
Some stepped before, others never will
But it happened. I stepped over the edge

It looked so inviting. It looks so far down.
It isn�t as fast as I thought.
The drop is not straight
There are bumps all the way.
There is no climbing back
Really it happened. I stepped over the edge.

I look back. The jungle is gone.
Can no longer find ground
Falling or just moving
Inertia has me
Sunshine consumes me
Finally it happened. I stepped over the edge.

What of the world comes with me?
What other parts do not?
So much earth
So little form
Eventually will it be clear?
And it happened. I stepped over the edge.

The voices are gone
Yet new ones are calling
What was forgotten?
Did I think about landing?
What could I have done?
Still it happened. I stepped over the edge.

Not alone off the edge
Yet so alone as I go
Where is the jungle?
Where is the shelter?
Was it ever really there?
God it happened. I stepped over the edge

As everything tumbles around me
I don�t know if I hurt
I don�t know if I�ve hurt
I know I try not to hurt
Sometimes I long for the dark
Because it happened. I stepped over the edge.

I believe that I am who I am
No longer something I�m not
But who am I really?
Who am I not?
Will I know when it stops?
Thoughtfully it happened. I stepped over the edge.

No rope is thrown over
Would I reach if I could?
The journey is scary
The journey is not smooth
Was it the right time?
Wrecklessly it happened. I stepped over the edge.

And just where did I step?
I could have stepped different.
No longer does it matter
The jungle is gone
The sunshine is hot
Accidently it happened. I stepped over the edge.

Landing upright is my focus
Assessing my space as it stops
It will stop. Or will it?
Will the motion not stop?
Would I have gone if I knew?
Narrowly it happened. I stepped over the edge.

I am no longer on edge
But some great trepidation
This long bumpy journey
Filled with fear
Disaster so near
Yet it happened. I stepped over the edge.

I refuse to say, �bottom�
It will just be a new place
To try to start over
To do so with grace
Can�t return to the jungle
Purposely it happened. I stepped over the edge.

And what of those that I love?
Where are they going?
Were they ever there with me?
What is it to want?
What is it to need?
Lovingly it happened. I stepped over the edge.

The challenge is focus
To build on new goals
Stopping or not
Transition or settled
Building with motion is tough
Deliberately it happened. I stepped over the edge.

One thing that matters so much
I see another on the edge
Will a step happen again?
Or remain in the jungle
It is easy to stay on the edge.
Hopefully it happened. I stepped over the edge.

And what will happen much later?
Will I just make a new jungle?
Or will I fry in the sun?
Will life go on with new learning?
Or will history repeat?
First it happened. I stepped over the edge.

And the motion does not stop�

[ 08-21-2003, 04:08 PM: Message edited by: Hogmaster ]

pdxkevin · 08-21-2003, 06:47 AM

Very good writing. I have reread it several times now. Each time from a different viewpoint ~ some hopefull, some dispairing, some literal, and some impressionistic. It was interestingthe way the message changed depending upon the viewpoint entering into the passages.

The viewpoint I liked the best was taking the edge to be leaving a career working for someone and venturing out to start your own business.

Thanks for the mental bubblegum.

skrimmy · 08-21-2003, 06:47 AM

Gee Hogmaster, folks might actually start ignoring the "mystery of carrot milk" and start wondering what it is that drives Hogmaster to "the edge".

Great writing as usual, thanks for sharing.

Hogmaster · 08-21-2003, 09:07 AM

Kevin -

Thanks for your interpetations. It can mean many things to many people I suppose...

skrimmy -

You know me well enough to realize I am never far from the edge. Why? Because it is there!

:grin:

Tanner · 08-21-2003, 09:24 AM

Oh Man, not again......... Hog have you been neglecting your medication????? :grin:

08-21-2003, 10:10 AM

Psychologists

More likely to view psychological problems as the result of life stress, and the development of maladaptive behavior patterns, rather than as part of a disease process or biological imperfection.

Less likely to see medication as a necessary part of the treatment process, although not opposed to medical treatment used in conjunction with psychological treatment.

Can administer and interpret psychological tests. Has more intensive training in personality development.

Psychiatrists

More likely to view psychological problems as the result of biological or medical processes, rather than the result of maladaptive learning.

More likely to see medication as a necessary part of the treatment process.

Can administer a variety of medical tests.

Can prescribe medication.

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Hogmaster · 08-21-2003, 10:37 AM

Writing

The elixer that allows Hogmaster to release tension and feelings without the co-pay.

There are many psychologists and psychiatrists on this site, some of which may even be licensed!

Gun Rod Bow · 08-22-2003, 10:29 PM

Hoggy,

One of my favorite sayings is "If you're not livin' on the edge, you're takin' up too much space"

You my friend are not takin' up too much space.

Interesting...I'll save my analysis for a long day of swinging from the rope...if I can ever stand to actually try that.

Fish Nets · 08-23-2003, 09:23 PM

One must ask . . . . is Jumping Better Than Pushing?