Hmmmm, I don't know, you sound a little psychotic, have you thought about seeking professional help? I think the loss of sunlight triggers these emotional traumatic disorders. The need to spend every waking moment outdoors appears to be consuming your every thought. What's your secret?? No sleep? We could all use a little of whatever your taking......adrenaline isn't it?
Are there any doctors in the house?? Pilar could use an expert opinion, please help, he's fading fast.
Gregg