BigWaterBigFish
10-09-2006, 03:31 PM
... feel something like a "fairweather" friend to God, keep in casual contact each night with small prayer but when the times get troubled I go running to him, high expectations.
Friday my girlfriend (soon to be fiance) was laid off from her job. Her field has lots of people, well skilled, out of work right now so worried about timing to find new position and at income similar to what she had. She is better than me at saving for rainy day but our lifestyle is pretty much sized to our paychecks. With Unemployment and a little severence she'll be ok for awhile. Then Sunday I learned my former spouse is moving back to town and will be staying with some aquintances of ours. I have prayed and prayed about this over the years and while I can say I do not hate her anymore and feel that I have forgiven her; the hair on the back of my neck is up. Part of the problem is she may still belong to a fellowship my future wife and I belong to and will probably bump into. Trying to just be still and hear God's will for me, to let our lives be an example of following G.O.D - good orderly direction - and be able not to have conflict if and when we might run into each other.
Took some time on Sunday to go to the Greek Festival in NE Portland and heard the Word through the Orthodox priest in his discussion of power of prayer and meditiation on what Jesus would want us to do for each other. Was wonderful to be around a close knit family culture and share great food.
Friday my girlfriend (soon to be fiance) was laid off from her job. Her field has lots of people, well skilled, out of work right now so worried about timing to find new position and at income similar to what she had. She is better than me at saving for rainy day but our lifestyle is pretty much sized to our paychecks. With Unemployment and a little severence she'll be ok for awhile. Then Sunday I learned my former spouse is moving back to town and will be staying with some aquintances of ours. I have prayed and prayed about this over the years and while I can say I do not hate her anymore and feel that I have forgiven her; the hair on the back of my neck is up. Part of the problem is she may still belong to a fellowship my future wife and I belong to and will probably bump into. Trying to just be still and hear God's will for me, to let our lives be an example of following G.O.D - good orderly direction - and be able not to have conflict if and when we might run into each other.
Took some time on Sunday to go to the Greek Festival in NE Portland and heard the Word through the Orthodox priest in his discussion of power of prayer and meditiation on what Jesus would want us to do for each other. Was wonderful to be around a close knit family culture and share great food.