WildHawg
03-28-2006, 09:42 PM
right now. Had a rough winter with less than succesfull knee surgery--at 44 my Dr. says I will need a knee replacement soon. I'm gonna ride it out as long as the good Lord gives me the strength to.
Unfortunately, my worst nightmare has transpired, and I feel like I am about to lose my mind. My wife of 17 years, and the beautiful mother of my 4 childrem seems to have hit a mid-life crisis. She has asked me for a divorce. While I knew that things were not perfect (and I am certaibly not), she has grown tired of my mood swings and is leaving my home with the kids. She married me straight out of her Dad's home, and feels as though she needs to strike out on her own. I won't place blame--she has her needs, but this is my worst nightmare. We have a 20 month old miracle named Zeb, along with my 3 beautiful other children--and I can't bear the thought of them leaving my home.
She has found a rental, and I have written the check that she will use to move out next Monday. I can't face work (took this week off as vacation), can't face my friends, and am having a real hard time facing life right now. No, I am not considering anything final--I would not risk losing my soul nor scarring my children and loved ones for life.
I seriously need your prayers though--all I can pray is that Gods will be done. I don't feel very christian when my emotions well up--I'm 6'3" and have never lost a fight, much less been knocked down by any man I've ever faced, but this is different. My emotions can't be addressed by defense. She has made her decision, and it is killing my soul. She is a good woman, and would never keep my children from me (I have never physically abused any of them, and never would) she claims she still loves me, but I have not been her friend.
I am a very emotional person, and between my physical problems and downfalls emotionally, I have neglected my family.
Please pray for my family, and myself--I don't know how I'll ever get through this without Gods help--and all I can pray is that his will be done--just can't focus.
I am going away tommorrow to find myself again--hope it works.
Please pray for my wife Annie, sons Isaac, Silas, Zeb, and my beautiful daughter Lily.
Thank you. and God Bless,
Charlie Prince
PS--I haven't even been able to talk to my best friends about this, I'm too embarrassed. Pleasae pray for the courage for me to seek counsel--I just can't seem to make those calls.
God bless you all,
Charlie
Unfortunately, my worst nightmare has transpired, and I feel like I am about to lose my mind. My wife of 17 years, and the beautiful mother of my 4 childrem seems to have hit a mid-life crisis. She has asked me for a divorce. While I knew that things were not perfect (and I am certaibly not), she has grown tired of my mood swings and is leaving my home with the kids. She married me straight out of her Dad's home, and feels as though she needs to strike out on her own. I won't place blame--she has her needs, but this is my worst nightmare. We have a 20 month old miracle named Zeb, along with my 3 beautiful other children--and I can't bear the thought of them leaving my home.
She has found a rental, and I have written the check that she will use to move out next Monday. I can't face work (took this week off as vacation), can't face my friends, and am having a real hard time facing life right now. No, I am not considering anything final--I would not risk losing my soul nor scarring my children and loved ones for life.
I seriously need your prayers though--all I can pray is that Gods will be done. I don't feel very christian when my emotions well up--I'm 6'3" and have never lost a fight, much less been knocked down by any man I've ever faced, but this is different. My emotions can't be addressed by defense. She has made her decision, and it is killing my soul. She is a good woman, and would never keep my children from me (I have never physically abused any of them, and never would) she claims she still loves me, but I have not been her friend.
I am a very emotional person, and between my physical problems and downfalls emotionally, I have neglected my family.
Please pray for my family, and myself--I don't know how I'll ever get through this without Gods help--and all I can pray is that his will be done--just can't focus.
I am going away tommorrow to find myself again--hope it works.
Please pray for my wife Annie, sons Isaac, Silas, Zeb, and my beautiful daughter Lily.
Thank you. and God Bless,
Charlie Prince
PS--I haven't even been able to talk to my best friends about this, I'm too embarrassed. Pleasae pray for the courage for me to seek counsel--I just can't seem to make those calls.
God bless you all,
Charlie