Hey! I'm packing the car and packing my clothes. Please know that I won't be updating here on the front page, but I will be updating here. It's just so much easier to update on the board!
I'm soooo tired! I didn't get any sleep last night. Can't wait to sleep tonight! Can someone please import the sound of the river to my hotel? I don't know if I can sleep without it! I'm already homesick for my dog and my river. Uh oh!
Give me a minute for a little 'whine time'.
I'll never forget long ago, when Pete got a job. He used to help me on ifish a whole bunch. In fact, he was as big a part of ifish, as I was. He had time, because he was in job search mode. Then, he got a great job which was awesome for Pete, but so scary for me!!!
My mod, STGRule said to me (and I'll never forget this) "Jennie, don't you dare try to run ifish alone!" But-- I did! I tried! And I've kept my head above water, doing it.
And then Bill, last night, hit on another thing. He said I'm "worn out" on ifish. I'm not burned out. That bothers me when people say that. I love ifish! I have to admit, though, that I am worn out! I'm physically tired and I don't get to fish as much as I did, on my limited energy. The energy I do have is spent on ifish and my rest time is spent in bed. That's no way to live, really.
I was blessed with a another chance on life, and I'm not living the honor of that, in the right way.
So, after the show is over, I'm working on changing this.
Thing is, I don't have much energy left over, after my work on ifish, to even start to plan on what is next! Ever been too tired to get help? That's where I am! I have offers on the table to help with ifish but no time to plan how it will happen!
But, I'm going to do it, by golly! After the show-- things have got to change. I want to be very involved in ifish-- but I can't do it alone.
I'm worn out.
I love ifish dearly. Never do I want out of it. But, I do want help!
OK.. whine time is over!
Off to the show! I can't WAIT to see people and visit! Come see us at booth 1252!
It's time to hug old friends and greet new ones! And, as I go about my day, totally exhausted, I'm going to be repeating this prayer in my head:
I can do all things through him who strengthens me. [Philippians 4:13] Whoo hoo!
Oh, God! Please help me get through this with flying colors! He is a miracle to me, because he sees me through everything!
And with that prayer, I'm renewed again! It's all going to work out! I can do this!

February 8th

Today is crazy day! Trying to get ready and remember everything for the show! Will you be there? I'll be there most every day at the beginning of the day, and then later in the afternoon. I can't do full days, so please don't get upset with me, if I'm not always there. I try! I try!
I don't know whether to bring my wheelchair or not. Hmmm. Just thinking out loud. I like to think I'm super woman when I'm not anymore! Would it help me? Yes. Would it be a hassle to transit? YES!
Hey! The Kings For The Kids tournament information is posted. Take a look! I think I just committed to being in the media boat! I'm fishing in a tournament! First one in ages! But, this is such a great cause! Join us! Hobart Manns, John Posey, maybe Nick Amato? Sounds fun to me!
Oh, shoot! More later. I have an apt. at 9:15! Gotta shower! Argh! Here we gooooooooo! Hold on, it's going to be a busy week!

February 7th

I yearn for the sound of the river and nothing else. Not a peep but a bird tweet! Just the river's soft melody and the sound of its inhabitants.
As you are probably aware, both of my boys currently reside with Bill and I. It's a busy household, here! If you want to see yogurt disappear, just watch! I bought 12 cups of yogurt two days ago, and it's gone! Gone! Gone!
Bill and I like to complain about them being here. The boys are a bit messy, and they are noisy. We wonder when our golden years will happen! OK, maybe it's a bit early for me!
I am very, very rarely alone.
I am a person who craves "alone" time, which is why I sometimes don't mind staying at a hotel alone. I like the sound of silence.
But hotels lack the sound of rivers, usually!
I'm not much into the sound of television. Bill likes it always on. I hear it now, coming from upstairs. It doesn't help that Bill is hard of hearing. It's loud!
I can also hear the sound of vibrating bass guitars, coming from Andrew's room, and silly noises from video games, bleeping from David's room.
I used to love it when my brother came home from college, because he had these awesome Bose speakers. They were like five feet high and they shook the windows when we'd play rock music. I loved that! I lived for June! But, although I still love good music, even more, I've grown to love the sound of silence-of the river's song, of the eagles that hover in the trees, hunting for their next meal.
I like to hear the chickens, when they get all excited and cackle together!
Sometimes I hear coyotes off in the distance, or a