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Uh oh! Still snowing!
Let it snow!
I have long been a believer that everything is
equal. So, if you live through really bad things, you will be
blessed with really good things! That thought is what gets me
thru the worst of times. I know that it will not last. Good
things will be soon coming my way!
Guess what? It's SNOWING on my Birthday! Despite how badly many
people will think of yet more cold weather this year, it has
always been MY dream to have snow on my Birthday, so for me,
this is a really, really magically good thing!
Whoo hooo! Makes me so happy!
I am a Christian, but I also believe some kind of spiritual
things like "Ying Yang" and "Karma", and
all that. Some people think it's not good to be a Christian
and believe in those things, but you know, I believe what I
believe. There is no denying what I have experienced!
What's even better about this snow, is that it probably won't
stay around long, so there is not much danger for drivers, etc.
It's onto Birthday cake for breakfast. (I know Bill has one
here for me, somewhere!) If not, he be best be goin' to da sto,
right quick! LOLOL
I love Birthdays! And thank you, good Lord, for the wonderful
gift of snow, today!
I'm finally back to the coast to heal from a most
After what I've been through in my life, it's hard to say anything
is harrowing, again. You know, aortic dissections, and near
death experiences, and all. -but this month was harrowing.
I have to go look that up, to see if it's the best word. BRB.
OK! "acutely distressing" I'd say that's
I have a lot to say, today, so bear with me.
Funny. I've always wondered whether it's "Bare with
me" or "Bear with me." and I guess others have
wondered the same. I googled it, as I do many things, and the
entire page was made up of others, asking this question.
Without google, my first guess would be "bare with me".
Of course it would be "bare" because otherwise, you'd
be bearing it with a "bear"!
here, to find out why!
So, with me! (That's
Speaking of bears, look what was on our game cam!
Click pic to zoom
That was a while back, but not sure if I ever
posted it. I had "bear" on my mind!
So, back to this harrowing month.
Geemany. I don't know where to begin.
I had been working diligently on the Kwikfish contest. Things
were going way too smoothly. You know, when you get that smooth
feeling, you feel like there is chaos on the front? Yep...
You know, the contest takes a lot of work. I enjoy the work,
so I don't really think of it as work. It's fun!
Carmen always reminded me to do it, though. It was kind of something
we did, together. Since I had sold ifish, I let things go a
bit more than I had in the past. I'm learning why you can't
do things half-way. So I'd get a note like this one:
Time flies...heck it's already October.
What are your thoughts on the Kwikfish contest this
Please let me know. I'm already behind the curve on
Breaks my heart to read through our notes. When
I do a search of my gmail, it says "1-150 of many".
We were mostly e mail friends, but you know how that goes, these
days. Many of my closest relationships are e mail only!
OK, so I was busy with all that, and so was he. We went through
finalists, and the mockups of the finalists! Something new,
Carmen started that new! He was just so great to work with!
So, then the winner won, and we ordered, and everything was
is the winner!
So, I prepped for the show... even bought a new outfit! I found
out a week before the show, that Carmen couldn't help, so I
panicked, and tried to get volunteers, here.
You know, I still think that is so weird.
I e mailed Carmen, since I hadn't heard from him a week before
the show. I just wanted to make sure it was like always. That
he would be getting my ticket, and that we'd be in the booth
together, laughing and having fun.
I emailed to make certain he'd be able to handle the cash at
night, etc. But.. I didn't hear back. I e mailed again. No answer.
One more time... I finally called him and that's when I heard
that the staff would be too busy this year. I understood. I
had kind of taken it for granted that it would be the same,
and I felt he was having trouble telling me that. So, I got
busy and got volunteers. That's always difficult. When I had
my own booth, I'd spend weeks setting up the volunteer schedule.
It became more difficult, with each passing year.
We tried all kinds of things to get volunteers, including "Meet
your ifishers!" We'd have some of the more famous ifishers
in the booth. Including, "Pinkboots!" Remember that
This year we don't have many mods, and they are all from all
over, so that was out of the question. I was relying on members
of ifish that I had never met before. This was exciting but
a bit scary, not knowing who I was having there! LOL. I was
looking so forward to meeting them, though! How nice of people
to step up to volunteer! Ifishers are SO awesome!
And then that horrific morning, February 5th, when I looked
to see a private message by the title of "horrible news".
I thought at the time, "Oh. someone lost their password
or something..." But, then I had to write to Carmen, first,
telling him the final show schedule that I made with volunteers,
how many tickets I'd need, etc." I wrote the letter, and
then went to read my private messages. "Horrible news"
was that Carmen was no longer with us.
I sat in shock for a long time, there at my desk before I went
to wake up my son. Shaking, I told him about it. He had met
One year, Carmen had done the entire show for me, during I think
it was my eye mishap. He even delivered everything to my home,
including the cash from sales. Every last bit of it. I tried
to pay he and his staff, and he would not allow anything but
a small amount. I really tried hard, too.
So, from there on, my e mail and private messages were a mess
of "the show is a go!" The show is NOT a go!"
Rinse, repeat, several times. I mean, just look at my
column or my
discussion board entries from this month! I'd go from not
knowing if I was even going to the show, to going, to not going
to going without kwikfish... It was so messed up!
Kris Nelson, Carmen's business partner was so helpful! She went
to find the kwikfish at Carmen's house, and delivered them to
It was a go! That was the last word!
Actually, the last word was that Kris said someone, maybe Roger?
Said it looked